i am the luckiest
life keeps scooting along and i'm doing my best to enjoy the ride. i'm not sure what's going on here; i'm feeling a strong urge to internalize my thoughts vs. airing them out to dry in the internet realm. there are pros and cons to both, of course; i'm fine with that. my interest in blogging has always suffered from a sort of ebb and flow, much like essentially all interests in my life.
friday is our five year wedding anniversary. when i first say that it sounds like a long time, but upon closer examination i can't believe more time hasn't passed. i remember being that girl, scared out of her mind, knowing i was on the precipice of a moment i would always remember as my first real milestone into adulthood; knowing i would be moving out of the only state i'd ever called home in less than a week, to a place i only knew as foreign and strange. knowing full well that most thought this was a rushed, immature mistake that would never last. it was a crucible, you can be sure of that. but i also knew that i could do it (and i did), and it would all be fine (and it was), and that i was with the person i was meant to be with (and i am).
i look back at that day and smile now, but if you asked me if i would want to re-live it again the answer would be not a chance. i'm in such a better place five years later. the foundation of my marriage has had time to grow, solidify, and set into a steady form that i now understand and depend upon. we're now living in a place of our choosing, without uncle sam dictating every move we make. we know the ins and outs of living together and can anticipate flare-ups and know how best to cope with them. i see now that marriage is like a fine wine - not only does it get better with age, but with each sip you discover more of the subtle flavors and aromas that play together to form this delicious, complex, lovely thing.
it's glorious to watch it all unfold.
friday is our five year wedding anniversary. when i first say that it sounds like a long time, but upon closer examination i can't believe more time hasn't passed. i remember being that girl, scared out of her mind, knowing i was on the precipice of a moment i would always remember as my first real milestone into adulthood; knowing i would be moving out of the only state i'd ever called home in less than a week, to a place i only knew as foreign and strange. knowing full well that most thought this was a rushed, immature mistake that would never last. it was a crucible, you can be sure of that. but i also knew that i could do it (and i did), and it would all be fine (and it was), and that i was with the person i was meant to be with (and i am).
i look back at that day and smile now, but if you asked me if i would want to re-live it again the answer would be not a chance. i'm in such a better place five years later. the foundation of my marriage has had time to grow, solidify, and set into a steady form that i now understand and depend upon. we're now living in a place of our choosing, without uncle sam dictating every move we make. we know the ins and outs of living together and can anticipate flare-ups and know how best to cope with them. i see now that marriage is like a fine wine - not only does it get better with age, but with each sip you discover more of the subtle flavors and aromas that play together to form this delicious, complex, lovely thing.
it's glorious to watch it all unfold.