uh-oh, i wore white pants before memorial day

[autumn_augury]

Plans for happier futures are in place. I find that about every two years I go through this cycle, where I start slowly getting more and more depressed and stuck in a rut, then I do something drastic and change my life and everything is beautiful and intense again. (I haven't used my livejournal for conveying my recent depression, but it is there

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[eva_bellatrix]

Are you ever gonna graduate? I know this is your fourth year, and if you were done now you'd be done with college for good, but it just seems like you've been there forever.
All I have to say about it is, get out and DO.

[autumn_augury]

i started evergreen in the fall of '03, then took a leave of absence spring '04 - winter '05. in terms of credits, i'll be a junior once i finish my current class. i feel like i've been here forever though, so i'm trying to make my remaining two years a getting-out and DOing sort of credit-gathering process rather than staying in a cold dark wet small town sort of credit-gathering process.

[eva_bellatrix]

I didn't realize that you'd started a year late too. Yeah, get out and do stuff, it'll be a lot easier to gauge what you really want if you're not surrounded by the four walls of education anymore.
What did you do in the year after high school? I don't remember, nor do I think I knew in the first place...

[autumn_augury]

"getting out and doing stuff" was the objective of my year between high school and college. i decided i didn't want to do any of the things i did during that time. i went to Dynamy in Worcester, where i did internships in social justice, media, and journalism.
i think we were out of touch during that time, or something...

[eva_bellatrix]

I remember Dynamy, I thought it was some sort of college at the time. Yeah, I think the problem is you seem like you keep seeking the ultimate educational experience in a school, when really the ultimate educational experience is life. Sounds hackneyed, but it's true. This is also why school mostly sucks and is at best a pale imitation of the outside world.

[autumn_augury]

yep, that's why i've been wanting to do independent contracts, where life = credit.