Ew.

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I feel like crap. I got sick last night. But then I felt better. I went to bed, and around 4 in the morning my stomach started bothering me again. So I couldn't sleep cause it felt like I was digesting rocks, on top of the fact that I feel like crap in other ways too... I called the school this morning cause I just needed to be near a bathroom all morning. I asked them to call me back with today's schedule so I could meet up with them when I felt ok but so far no ones gotten back to me. Typical. As far as working there goes, I might as well be a mute. No one listens to a word I say. Its so pointless to voice anything because its like talking to a wall. And its just as pointless to listen because everyone changes their minds and goes back on their word anyway. It sucks for the kids cause they are friggen mind readers. I so much as THINK about something they did wrong and they fix it themselves together. I'm so proud of them. Its just that this last part of the season sucks because sectional time isn't going to do anything for us anymore but when we join everyone else on the field, its just another drill rehearsal, and its not even like they rep parts enough for the pit to play because by the time they've figured out where they are they've moved on. Theres just no cooperation from anyone. Which would be fine if they were willing to be satisfied with the results, but don't come complaining to me about how the pit can't play with the band if no one will give me the time of day when I tell them what I need to do to fix that. Everything with this band is just visual visual visual. How are these kids ever going to learn to be musicians??? I mean, when they are done with HS, who the hell is going to care if they can do a toe roll or not? But music is something you take so much further and a lot of these kids have so much potential but you'd never know that unless you were the one actually working with them because they always get pushed out of the big picture. You know what I wish? I wish I had a concert percussion ensemble. Even if like, just 2 kids want to do it, I'll find duets and work with them. What I'm saying is, the kids that want to learn, will actually get the oppurtunity. But for now its still band season. I think what I'm going to do for the rest of this season is not even worry about the show, but just flat out teach them how to be percussionists and musicians. That way they can take what they learn to every ensemble that they are in.
Ew, I can feel breakfast digesting. I hope it stays in me at least...
I 'm gonna go call the school again and see if I can find out whats going on with today.