sticks and stones and weed and bombs.

[automatiiic]

i don't want this to sound like a complaint, because i was told that i complain too much. my current uncertainty is understanding what guys are feeling. in this battleship game of being single, i'm slowly sinking. i can't bring myself to hurt others the way that i've been hurt in the past. and being single makes me feel like i can't do anything but. and so there's this new boy, and i've known him forever but now there's potentially more. i could stare at his paintings forever and still not read into his mind. i hate saying anything this early though, because somehow i always jynx it, or maybe i'm just used to always being let down. i stayed up late last night trying to solve this mystery with a boy that i know. his outlook on relationships and love was so bitter and cold. and the worst part is, i feel like a contributor to his prospect. i'm never in the right state of mind anymore.

this website has been my current fixation:
http://www.sleeptrip.com/300loveletters/2.html