Jul 18, 2007 20:45
i missed the horoscopes completely and went for a libra/scorpio. thinks (or doesn't really) like a libra, built like a scorpio. the dick to match.
3 months later and I'm alone again. he was giving me the three month flip but i cut him off before it happened. we were headed to that whole scenario with me being the weak victim. sitting at home, waiting for him to either call or cheat on me. luckily i didn't let it get there, i ended it to save what little face was left.
3 months and we never had sex. by sex i mean penetration. we got really close a bunch of times but it just hadn't happened. my reasoning was that I didnt want to make the same mistakes i have in other relationships. thank god i did that. had we fucked i'd be laying in a gutter somewhere.
I actually loved this one. we even talked about it. he said 2 weeks ago that he couldn't think of any other guy. i even said it, right before i left him. i had to. somehow in a crisis i always rally before it hits bottom. i had the bag packed with everything he ever gave me. either he was gonna say what i needed to hear, or he'd have that shit back.
i still kinda feel like i want to die. i feel an odd amount of relief, mixed with disappointment. it had reached the point where i told people about him. now i have to go around and explain myself. this is the part that is really going to suck.
on the other hand, i got a fabulous haircut and i'm finally getting in shape. i'm gonna bounce back so hard that nobody will know what hit them. san francisco, be ready.