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with the warm summer air and the buzzing of the lights in the sign, i closed up. looking at the vacant parking lot, with one to two cars abanodoned in it...I just kept hoping every time i looked up from the ground id see your car right there and you just sitting on the hood like you do, and that little smirk where you wonder what im thinking but at the same time your about to laugh because you already know. But each time i look up its the same blue mazda, its the same silver minivan. I miss the nights when you were here. i miss the nights when even no words spoken told us exactly what was happening, and even when it was an exchange of silence that told the truth of what was to come, i was happy. Because for one moment you and i, we were in unison. we knew. So when I get off work ill sit and wait. I know you wont be here and I wont cry this time. Ill just go home and make my way to the bed. I still wont cry. Ill lie there and begin to fall asleep without a tear, and think back to the days, before this all.

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