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Today I did a couple of things that I don't sometime think I do as much as I need to.
I prayed
For Myself
And I Confronted a Fear
Although it didn't do much good.
After holding in my frustrations with my parents relationship, and all the stress, problems, worry, pain, that have accummulated, from the last two girlfriends, the pressure to be a "leader" when I don't even know what the fuck one is yet, having to hold back any real feelings I may have about anyone around me, because I can't "afford" to lose any ones trust, all at the expense of feeling like I can ever be close with anyone ever again.
So all of this culminated in the only thing I had left in me to do.
I cried
which is another thing I probably don't do enough.
Peace
I prayed
For Myself
And I Confronted a Fear
Although it didn't do much good.
After holding in my frustrations with my parents relationship, and all the stress, problems, worry, pain, that have accummulated, from the last two girlfriends, the pressure to be a "leader" when I don't even know what the fuck one is yet, having to hold back any real feelings I may have about anyone around me, because I can't "afford" to lose any ones trust, all at the expense of feeling like I can ever be close with anyone ever again.
So all of this culminated in the only thing I had left in me to do.
I cried
which is another thing I probably don't do enough.
Peace