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if you would let me, i would hold you forever. i hate that you sleep so much because i think the world beyond the sheets is too bright and undiscovered to be wasted, but im starting to realize why it has become a form of security for you. i dont like picturing you in bed, eyes glazed over, slipping in and out of consciousness. and when you are feeling that way, i just want to wrap my arms around you and hold you close. i want you to know and to feel the warmth of love surround you. i want to be able to tell you that life is okay and there's nothing to be afraid of. i want to kiss your eyelids as you sleep in hoping that my love for you can give you peace while you dream. i know i cannot be the cure, but i want to be one of the reasons you get help. youre telling me you dont want me to wait for you, but i refuse to leave.