a rundown of the evening
"i didn't bail on purpose! and I feel really bad about th othr day. but if u havnt written me off, i do wnt to meet up. if id metu anywhere ekse it would be fine, its jst th whole intrnet thang makes me a lil uneasy, but im ovr that now :) so yeah, Im stil keen if u are!"
what the fuck.... should I buy this shit?
[00:32] autistk@msn.com: I don't care about politics, and I'm a clueless, spritually devoid husk
[00:33] autistk@msn.com: I don't believe in anything much,
[00:34] autistk@msn.com: I believe in love, but I don't understand it enough to not get anything less than severe third degree burns from it
so, being a cocky cunt, I ended up saying "want a late night phone call?"... I got "hmm... yeah" in response... so, I ran with it and called her. Ended up talking for a couple of hours... just random getting to know you shit really... but all good interesting stuff.... I enjoyed every second of it. Of course, there were moments of awkwardness, but nothing painful, and all that... umm..bittersweet sounds too full on... just, a comfortable awkwardness...
I'm probably making more of it than I should, but fuck... I'm rather pleased...
I got told by a few friends to do the whole act disinterested and not respond for a few days thing. I really don't buy into that shit. I know it works for a lot of people, and it's how they wanna operate, but I can't do it. If I'm interested in someone, I can't treat them like shit. I can't act like I don't give a fuck. Maybe I'm weak willed, or maybe I'm not a stupid asshole. Who knows. The way I figure it, if I'm not that way, then there's gonna be other people who aren't that way.... and if there ar eother people who aren't that way then there are girls who aren't that way. and if that's the case, then odds on, those are the kinds of girls I'd get on best with. If some dipshit ho is gonna run a mile cuz I seem *gasp* interested, and I'm *shockhorror* not treating her like shit on the sole of my shoes, then well fuck, fuck them.
I don't mean to get ahead of myself... this shit could all backfire woefullly, but for now, I'm feeling pretty secure in my choice to be honest about my feelings and my intentions, and, from what I can tell, it was the right choice.
stay tuned kiddies.
what the fuck.... should I buy this shit?
[00:32] autistk@msn.com: I don't care about politics, and I'm a clueless, spritually devoid husk
[00:33] autistk@msn.com: I don't believe in anything much,
[00:34] autistk@msn.com: I believe in love, but I don't understand it enough to not get anything less than severe third degree burns from it
so, being a cocky cunt, I ended up saying "want a late night phone call?"... I got "hmm... yeah" in response... so, I ran with it and called her. Ended up talking for a couple of hours... just random getting to know you shit really... but all good interesting stuff.... I enjoyed every second of it. Of course, there were moments of awkwardness, but nothing painful, and all that... umm..bittersweet sounds too full on... just, a comfortable awkwardness...
I'm probably making more of it than I should, but fuck... I'm rather pleased...
I got told by a few friends to do the whole act disinterested and not respond for a few days thing. I really don't buy into that shit. I know it works for a lot of people, and it's how they wanna operate, but I can't do it. If I'm interested in someone, I can't treat them like shit. I can't act like I don't give a fuck. Maybe I'm weak willed, or maybe I'm not a stupid asshole. Who knows. The way I figure it, if I'm not that way, then there's gonna be other people who aren't that way.... and if there ar eother people who aren't that way then there are girls who aren't that way. and if that's the case, then odds on, those are the kinds of girls I'd get on best with. If some dipshit ho is gonna run a mile cuz I seem *gasp* interested, and I'm *shockhorror* not treating her like shit on the sole of my shoes, then well fuck, fuck them.
I don't mean to get ahead of myself... this shit could all backfire woefullly, but for now, I'm feeling pretty secure in my choice to be honest about my feelings and my intentions, and, from what I can tell, it was the right choice.
stay tuned kiddies.