*deep breath*
alright.
so, now at least two people have pointed out that i have loaded myself up with a ton of work.
ron before and tonight alicia mentioned that it was crazy of me to take a Shakespeare course on-line when I could barely grasp algebra.
but I understand Shakespeare.
I keep dancing around with the idea of dropping algebra two and going into dumb math (no offense to anyone who takes it)
i just look at the paper and it's as if the numbers are a strange foreign language.
perhaps when i get a graphing calculator and can actually participate in class, I'll understand.
probably not.
but i'll try.
i have an algebra test tomorrow.
which i will bomb.
but, other than that?
chemistry is a little confusing (so much math!)
but i understand the general idea and should do fine on that test on thursday.
i already wrote my Shakespeare essay (due Thursday after school)
and I wrote about half my drama essay tonight while Alicia was here. (due Friday)
so....I can do this.
On a non-school note:
Here's the thing about therapy: when you go in (willingly, like I did), you can function. Not well, but it's possible to get by. then, you go to therapy and you unlock all these things that you've locked away for ages.
then, you try to deal with these things so that you can move on and get better.
but you're stuck thinking about these things until you work them out.
some of them (alright, one major thing) I have already resolved.
so, that's good.
i also finished my play today.
it's thirty pages.
mrs. cooper told me to show it to damron
but im really bad with going up to teachers
and speaking to them
no matter how much i think they may like me
it scares the crap outta me.
what if he doesn't like it?
i know the first half is at least decent.
and none of my "suppoertive" friends
and being supportive
...or maybe i jusr expect too much
that is increidbly possible.
also:
dealing with guilt.
and self-hatred. (what else is new?)
but i'm hoping that
everything will work
itself out
and i won't completely lose it
again.
i wish we could afford therapy every week. :/