[One-shot] Push the button

[yoru_no_hikaru]

Title: Push the button
Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don’t own any characters
Warnings: Swearing, a bit of making out
Summary: A long-forgotten item suddenly appears again and reminds Jun of things he really doesn’t want to think about. But then, how come it is still around? So Jun decides he needs to confront Sho…

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[yoru_no_hikaru]

I thought this story up when we were talking about those Sakumoto things and whether Sho actually did receive that button, or not. I was thinking "I wonder what he did with it" and then I thought it would be so aweseome if even after he and Jun didn't get alon gtoo well he would keep carrying it around, wanting it close to him. ^^

Aw, I know very well what you mean about Jun's little "problem" with covering his feelings. XD You'll always see when watching him whether he likes someone, or not. I think it's really cute, because while he's still being professional, his feelings come to the surface like that just a it and you can see a part of him that's "real". I feel his fury towards Sho and I understand it well too. I think Sho just reacted in a kind of panic, but, of course, it wasn't exactly a good idea to simply shove Jun away.

I have to say, this is how I see Sho. I think he had a very hard time trying to find his "place" in life - after all, he kept trying to establish something that was against basically everything he must have been taught as he grew up. But then, he grew strong enough to hold his ground for himself and against anything or anyone, who wanted to force him into a life he couldn't see for himself, so, even though he might still have a conservative heart, I think he's learned to accept himself the way he is. (Call me nuts, but ever after he's been going through that change, it seems that Jun's reservation towards him has decreased bit by bit.) So, Sho's approach is strong, because he's established it for himself thinking about it a lot.

When they were standing together after Sho's confession... don't they always kiss in fiction after such heart-felt declarations? So, I really wanted this to be different. And Jun's words are very true. However, there is one very important major change that takes place in that scene. When Jun tells himself that "to Sho he's not worth fighting for", that's the experience he's had of it before. But in that scene Sho changes the pattern, not letting Jun leave, because he wants to fight for him, even against a possible opponent. And honestly, I think that's just the thing that opened the door for him. Jun might not even realize it in that situation, but Sho's impulsive decision makes their entire relationship take a huge turn. New dynamics arise from this one act alone. I think that's also what then helps Sho to go all the way and kick his wariness into the bin and to forget abbout the things that lie behind them and try to face new possibilities together. The way he asks Jun out in the dressing room is just... <3

The rest of the goup is in a very difficult situation when Sakumoto haed towards yet another intense drama. Of course, getting involved cna make things worse, but then, I understand that they are worried that things might be disrupted within the gorup. Of course, Ohno's reasoning is the best thing they can go with.

Oh, I LOVE the date. Sho really presses every button. Some things might be a bit over the top, but then, I think it's just what Jun wants in that situation. I adore how attentive Sho is. I picture him to be like that. You know, caring for the one he loves very naturally, even though he might be doing some things because he knows they are expected. But then, it's also heart-felt when he wants to provide them just to make the one he loves happy, isn't it? (Like, I don't think of Sho as someone who would send flowers, because he thinks that's a good way to show your affection, but rather because he simply knows you will love them, so...) They are both so nervous at first, but somehow these two develop an air of their own so naturally, I didn#t even have to try to make it work. ^^

Aw, the dressing room scene. <3 Haha, well, Nino got a glimpse. XD I envy him, while he definitely didn't want to see that kind of thing. Well, he'll get over it. ^^ I like this scene a lot, the interaction between Jun and Sho, especially the confession at the end - it shows how comfortable they have grown with each other, with the people they have become and that was just so heart-warming.

Thank you so much for your lovely comment!!! <3<3<3 I'm glad that you enjoyed this story. I had a lot of fun writing it. ^^