One thousand and then some: Stage - Act I: One thousand and one touches

[yoru_no_hikaru]

Pairing: KinKi Kids
Other characters: SDK crew, 4U, MA, Nagase Tomoya, Imai Tsubasa… and others
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Don’t own them, just love them. ^^
Setting: canon
Warning: Just a tad of angst, but nothing much, other than that it’s basically smutty
Multi-chapter

Notes: First of I want to thank everybody for the wonderful feedback I received for “Call boy”. The second chapter is in the work, as well as the header. In the meantime, since this is already done I want to share this one first. I hope you will like it too. :D

Intro: Tsuyoshi comes to visit the 1000th performance of Endless SHOCK. Just what will happen once the curtain closes? A surprise is presented, a secret is revealed and a promise is made. However, a long-written story takes a very unexpected turn that might prove rather difficult to handle.


Koichi stared at the man standing in front of him.
“I still don’t believe it,” he breathed out.
“Believe what?”
“That you came,” Koichi explained, shaking his head. “You… after all these years - why?”
“Well… because I’m proud of you?” the other offered.
“You’re proud?” Koichi asked in disbelief. “You said you couldn’t watch it and that it was bothersome to be here.”
“Because people would be staring,” Tsuyoshi reminded him. “And be distracted from your work.”
“And because you don’t like the stunts I’m doing,” Koichi reminded him.
Tsuyoshi bit his lip. “My feelings concerning that are complicated,” he admitted.
Koichi blinked at that. “How so?”

“I…” the other tried to explain, “I know that these things are dangerous and naturally I’m worried when you keep doing them. But… well, at the same time I think it’s amazing that you’re doing all of this and I feel proud that my partner is so… cool.”
Koichi stared. “What… cool?!”
“Sure, it’s way cool.”
“Wow,” Koichi puffed out. “I… wow.”
“What - has nobody ever told you that what you do is cool?” Tsuyoshi laughed.
“Er, not with those exact words, no,” Koichi told him. “I’ve heard a lot of things. Stunning, amazing, big, glittery…”
“Glittery?” Tsuyoshi asked, amused.
“Yeah, that was Takami-kun. He’d point something like that out,” Koichi grinned.
“He would,” Tsuyoshi nodded his agreement.
“But my work has never been labeled… cool,” Koichi explained his point.

“Well, now you have your official label,” his partner offered.
“And from you of all people,” Koichi chuckled. “The one who always called me a square.”
“You are one in real life,” Tsuyoshi shrugged, “but you’re cool on stage.”
“A little something to compensate lacking skill,” Koichi stated sarcastically.
“You again,” Tsuyoshi sighed. “Why can’t you ever simply accept a compliment? And you’re well-skilled in all the right fields.”
“Could be better,” the other shrugged.
“And there talks the perfectionist,” Tsuyoshi smirked.
“Maybe,” Koichi shrugged.
“I think I’ve told you this before, Koichi, but your imperfection is one big point in people finding a liking to you. It’s a good thing.”
“Because they can feel superior to me.”
“Don’t be stupid now,” Tsuyoshi sighed. “You know that’s not it.”

“Koichi.”
Two heads turned to find Matsuzaki standing close by.
“Ah,” the younger man mumbled awkwardly, “the crew is waiting,” he reminded Koichi.
“Right,” Koichi nodded. “I’ll be right there.” He turned back to Tsuyoshi. “Ah, I have to go…”
“Sure.”
“Do you… I mean…” Koichi blushed, breaking off.
“I’ll be waiting here,” Tsuyoshi helped him out. “I have something else I want to give you,” he said mysteriously.
Koichi blinked at that, but had no time to ask further questions.
“You can wait in my dressing room,” he offered.
Tsuyoshi nodded and shooed Koichi to go and finish his work.

It was a good hour later when Koichi returned to his dressing room an apologetic look on his face.
“I’m so sorry,” he muttered. “Higashi-san…”
“No need for explanations,” Tsuyoshi smiled at him. “He didn’t want to let go of you?” he guessed, sounding amused.
“You waited here all this time?” Koichi asked, shaking his head.
Tsuyoshi frowned slightly, but respected Koichi’s obvious wish to drop the topic.
“I said I still want to give something to you,” he reminded his partner kindly.
“You could have given it to me some other time, though,” Koichi shrugged.
“No,” Tsuyoshi mumbled, getting up from his seat. “Only today,” he insisted.
He approached Koichi as if in trance, looking straight into his eyes, a fierce look on his face. His hand grabbed for Koichi’s arm, pulling him close, having his surprised partner practically stumbling into his arms.

“Hey, what…”
Koichi broke off, his eyes growing wide as he felt a venturing hand fumbling his private parts and not jokingly, as they both used to do every so often, but with intent. The difference was so striking it left him unmoving, his breath catching at the unfamiliar sensation. Only when Tsuyoshi pushed him his legs would give way, moving him backwards until his back hit the wall, his partner’s body pressing against him, making him feel hot. He bit his lip, trying to clear his mind and regain some power over his senses. However, that was when he felt hot breath against his ear tickling his skin.
“You are so beautiful,” Tsuyoshi whispered to him. “So fascinating. Tempting… It’s true, I can’t stand watching you, because when I do I always fear I might jump you.”
“You mean, like you do now?” Koichi asked, his voice shaking with his body as a pair of soft lips went to nipping the sensitive skin behind his ear.
“Mhm, exactly like that,” Tsuyoshi mumbled absentmindedly, ravaging what skin he could reach.
The hand stroking Koichi grew bolder, rubbing with more pressure and slowly, but notably getting a reaction.
“Tsuyoshi…”

“It’s one word,” Tsuyoshi said in a soft, but slightly stronger voice. His lips detached from Koichi’s neck, but he kept his face hidden from the other’s gaze, and the stroking hand stopped its motions. “One word and I’ll stop,” he assured.
Koichi merely stood there, his eyes still wide open, frozen in place. He felt paralyzed somehow. Tsuyoshi’s words met his ears and he understood the meaning behind them and he thought that at least after the assault had stopped and his shocked mind was able to recover, he should reclaim his freedom and private space. He didn’t even have to push the other away. There was no doubt that Tsuyoshi would keep his word and back off the moment he voiced his disapproval. Even so, he found himself still motionless, his lips pressed together tightly, as though he was afraid a sound might escape that the other would misinterpret and… what? Continue? Stop? He frowned. How could it be he wasn’t sure? While Koichi was still sorting his thoughts, he felt Tsuyoshi continuing his earlier ministrations.

“Any time,” he breathed against Koichi’s ear before his lips busied themselves with the treasuring of warm, welcoming skin.
And then a sound did slip past Koichi’s lips, one that shocked both of them. Koichi moaned, loud and clear, his eyes sliding closed as he enjoyed the sensations washing over his body. Physical contact was something he was always wary about. Only a handful of people were allowed to touch him leisurely and intimately - that was an entirely different matter again. Of course, he’d had enjoyed the carnal pleasures of sexual activities, but they had been rare and basically as sterile as possible. Tsuyoshi’s hands on him made him feel almost aflame, though. It was a new experience, alien, but oh so exciting. He wasn’t feeling anxious as he had many times before. Instead he was full of anticipation, wondering where those deft fingers would be venturing next and what they’d be doing there.
“Oh god,” Koichi rasped out as he felt his partner fumbling with his pants and reaching into his boxers to reveal his weeping member.
Only for a second he marveled at the fact that he was actually hard, then his attention was completely caught again by his partner’s next move. Tsuyoshi gave his neck one last nip, then he slid down Koichi’s body until he was kneeling on the floor.
“Yes,” Koichi sighed out, gripping Tsuyoshi’s shoulders and encouraging him to continue.

The younger man didn’t have to be told twice. With a swift and probably practiced motion he took his partner’s dick into his mouth, starting to suck enthusiastically. His hand slid to the base to work what his mouth couldn’t take. He had a hard time holding back his own desire, but his foremost intention was to give his partner pleasure. The cock in his mouth swelled and pulsated and it made him greedy. Koichi was hard for him, a fact he had never thought possible and it made him want to give Koichi even more pleasure, to make him lose his head over fuelled passion and so he bobbed his head fast, taking the aching flesh in deeper as he went. For Koichi the mere thought that he was actually receiving a blow-job already pushed his lust to new heights, making him feel hot and bothered. The details were even more delicate. They were in his dressing room, hidden by nothing but a curtain. People could hear them, or maybe even catch a glimpse. But damn, that only made it all more exciting. The raw feelings rushing through his body made him feel high. And when he felt a tongue lapping at him teasingly, he simply lost his mind. With a loud groan he succumbed to the pleasure engulfing him, his hips starting to buck desperately, seeking more.

“Oh my god,” he whined, one hand gripping Tsuyoshi’s hair tight. “Oh god, don’t stop. Ah… please…”
The other man got the hint and pushed himself into the final spurt. He took Koichi in just that tad deeper, ignoring the work of his gag-reflex and sucking for what he was worth, forcing the inevitable undoing of his partner. Koichi’s body reacted instantly. The unexpected stimulation made him jump, body straightening, his hands leaving Tsuyoshi’s shoulders, forming fists that smashed against the wall repeatedly, his head too flying back and banging hard against the wall, but not even that could distract him from the almost unbearably strong sensation flooding his entire body, making it shake desperately as he released hard into his partner’s readily waiting mouth. Another long, low moan sounded from his lips, his eyes closed in ultimate bliss. Tsuyoshi took everything he had to give, swallowing happily as he kept sucking slowly, lazily, allowing Koichi a comfortable down. Only when he felt still shaking fingers waving into his hair and stroking it lovingly he let go of the softening dick, but still not without giving a few last soothing licks that made Koichi’s over-sensitive body twitch. Feeling that he’d done a proper job of it Tsuyoshi finally released Koichi’s member completely and moved to stand in front of Koichi again. Big eyes looked at him, almost staring him down, and Tsuyoshi gasped at the mass of emotions raining down on him - confusion, disbelief, satisfaction, shame, gratefulness, fear, fondness…

“Koichi,” Tsuyoshi finally spoke up, “I…” he laughed nervously. “I don’t know what to say now. I didn’t expect… well, this,” he admitted with a smile. “But not to worry,” he assured Koichi, “I won’t read too much into it. I know your feelings and I respect them. This was actually supposed to be my ultimate confession fail. It was really supposed to be nothing, but a teasing joke. I really hope I didn’t go too far, but since you voiced your approval I found it appropriate to finish the job.”
“Why are you making it sound like some kind of deed?” Koichi asked, making a face. “It’s not like I asked you.”
“That’s not what I meant,” Tsuyoshi assured him. He sighed. “I thought you didn’t actually want to hear it. But if that’s how you want it to be…”
His clean hand came up to cup Koichi’s face, pulling it a bit closer to his own and stroking Koichi’s still slightly flushed cheek lovingly. Koichi found himself grasping the hand and closing his eyes as he guided it over his skin. What was that feeling that suddenly seeped into his mind? It felt unwantedly heavy. Like a reality he’d been blocking out for the past few minutes, but that slowly, almost painfully forced itself back into the room. Suddenly he felt like crying.
“Tsuyoshi, I…”
“Ssshhhhhhh,” the other shushed him.

Koichi jumped slightly, the other’s voice sounding very close to his ear again. When had he closed in on him again?
“There is nothing you have to say,” Tsuyoshi assured him. “I’ve always loved you and I always will. I know that you know and I know why you never said anything. Nothing will change. To have you in my life… is the greatest treasure I could ever hold and I wouldn’t want to trade it for anything in the world.”
That said he leaned forward and gave the softest peck to Koichi’s cheek, making his partner gasp at the contact. As he wanted to retreat, though, he felt Koichi’s hand grasping him and pulling him back. He blinked at his partner, surprised and confused. Koichi held his gaze, his eyes boring right into him.
“You know I don’t feel that way,” Koichi finally stated.
It actually hurt to say it, but he knew it was best for Tsuyoshi, who loved him honestly. He had to be honest, or else his partner would suffer even more. And the truth was simply that he couldn’t love his partner the way he wanted him to.
“I do,” Tsuyoshi confirmed.

“Thank you,” Koichi said simply, although it sounded heart-felt, “for loving me. I know it’s actually an awful line, but I want you to know that… I really appreciate it. And I realize that I hardly deserve it.”
“It really is an awful line,” Tsuyoshi agreed, sounding pained.
“I’m sorry,” Koichi apologized. “I… thank you for giving me this. And I’m really sorry that I can’t… give you what you actually want.”
“Oh, Koichi,” Tsuyoshi chuckled, shaking his head. “We’re both having the same problem there. What I could give you was… a mere glimpse. But I too cannot give you what you really want.”
“But,” Koichi stared, “it’s not your fault.”
“Neither is it yours,” Tsuyoshi smiled at him.
At that Koichi had to laugh. “You and your weird logics.”
“So long as they work for me…”

“True,” Koichi nodded. He considered his partner for a moment, then moved to pull the other closer again.
“What now?” Tsuyoshi asked innocently.
“The only thing - the least that I can do,” Koichi told him, “is to return the favour. If I can’t give myself to you, I want you to have this…”
And with that he smashed their lips together, starting what turned into a long and sensual kiss that had both of them sigh and moan as they enjoyed the unique experience, stealing light touches and caresses. Tsuyoshi’s lips burned when they separated.
Koichi smiled at him. “I wonder if you can even understand the gravity of…”
“Are you kidding?” Tsuyoshi interrupted him. “I absolutely understand,” he assured his partner. “The number of people you will kiss during your entire life… the selected few you will allow in close enough… you made me one of them.”
“You really are important to me. And I don’t have a lot of people who are important to me. I just want you to know… I’m so glad that you’re in my life. I just…”

“I understand,” Tsuyoshi assured him. “I feel the same way. I’m happy enough to have you in my life. So… let’s keep things the way they are.”
“I’m glad you understand,” Koichi smiled.
Tsuyoshi gave one final, encouraging nod, before he finally completely detached from the man he loved.
“Koichi?”
“Hm?”
“You should really find yourself a girl,” Tsuyoshi suggested. “I mean, if you come at my touch, I guess you need it pretty bad.”
“Jerk,” Koichi complained, although he laughed as he slapped the other’s arm playfully.
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Oh, wow. O_O Quite intense. I hope you like it, even though there's no happy end - somehow their first attempt never works out. XD Well, lots of room for a new story. Let's see where things will be going.

Backstage: Scene I