New York, Rio, TOKIO - Chapter 4: Chuu

[yoru_no_hikaru]

Pairing: Nagase/Shigeru
Rating: PG (yes, they're kissing)
Disclaimer: Don't own JE-stuff, or people
Warnings: none really, it's all fluffy
Multi-Chapter

Intro: This takes place about 3 years after chapter 3. Things have settled down, Tokio's carreer is running quite smoothly... and Tomo-chan is getting new ideas. Shigeru-kun is totally taken aback by the boy's advances. What will he do?

Note: Okay, I decided to overcome my anxiousness and just post. I hope you will like it, it's certainly special. Please note, I really don't think Nagase is overly innocent, or oblivious, or something. He just seems the type who wouldn't think about a topic so long as it doesn't really concern him in person, but then he notices the world moving around him and wonders... am I missing something? That's what I had in mind. Anyway, here it is.


Nagase turned around to face into the room.

“Shigeru-kun?” he asked, flipping over onto his side and bracing his head on his left hand.

“Yes?” Shigeru answered, deciding to only make the effort of looking up from his book if the matter was actually worth it.

Nagase bit his lip nervously.

Then he took a deep breath and blurted out. “How does kissing work?”

Shigeru blinked for a second, then shot his head up to look at Nagase.

“What did you just say?” he asked in disbelief.

“I said,” Nagase told him exasperatedly, “How does kissing work?”

Shigeru blinked at him again. “What.... where ever does that come from?”

Nagase looked pointedly at him. “Well, what do you think? I’m 18 already and I haven’t been kissed. Everybody is talking about it and I don’t know a thing. Not to mention Koichi. Boy, he and Tsuyoshi are all the way through already.”

Shigeru almost fell off his seat, not only at the unexpected information, but mainly due to the casual way in which Nagase was reporting.

“So I thought, maybe I’m doing something wrong,” the younger boy concluded. “What do you think?”

Shigeru tried to organise himself again, but failed. He couldn’t think of anything proper to say, so he just stuttered incoherently.

“Well, you know.... I’m pretty sure you can’t do anything wrong before you actually start kissing. No, can’t see that. And you’re a nice and smart guy. Basically everybody should be happy to get to kiss you. I’m sure lots of people want to, actually. They just don’t dare advance you.”

Nagase blinked. “So.... people want to kiss me - but they don’t ask me?”

The boy looked confused.

Shigeru smiled affectionately. “Well, you know, from the way it feels to me, you’re the `type´ who is supposed to do the asking.”

The look on Nagase’s face did not clear.

“Well,” Shigeru tried again, licking his lips. “Oh, btw, who are we talking about now?”

“Eh?” Nagase made, confused.

“Boys or girls?” the band leader explained.

“Oh,” Nagase nodded. “I think I like girls.”

“Okay, well, then you’ll have to do the asking in the first place. A girl doesn’t come up to you and asks you to kiss her,” Shigeru explained.

Nagase nodded again. “So, who does the asking when it’s two boys?”

Shigeru flinched. Nagase really had a unique feel for uncomfortable questions and rotten timing.

“Do you ask when you want to kiss someone?” Nagase persisted.

“Well,” Shigeru stuttered, “I.... yeah, I guess I do. I do that often. But not always.”

“How do you make a difference?”

Shigeru sighed. “You see, when you decide to commit to a relationship, you take a certain position. It depends on what position you want to have or are suitable for, whether you do the asking.”

“Okay,” Nagase mused thoughtfully. “So, when you ask for a kiss, you’re like leader-san, then?”

Shigeru blinked at him. Then he thought about it. “Well, actually, that’s a good way to put it.”

“And if you’re asked for the kiss you’re like more common,” Nagase concluded.

“That’s right,” Shigeru told him.

“And I’m a leader?” Nagase asked wondering.

“Well, with girls it’s like that anyway,” Shigeru explained.

“Right,” Nagase nodded, still musing. The moment he opened his mouth again the band leader knew he was dead. “Who would I be if it were guys?”

Shigeru hesitated for a moment, but then sighed and said hell with it. “I think you’d be a leader there too,” he told the boy.

“Really?”

“Well, what does it matter? You said you liked girls, so go and kiss her,” Shigeru said exasperatedly.

“Who?” the boy asked, confused.

“Well, the girl you like,” Shigeru explained.

“I don’t really like a girl right now,” Nagase told him.

“Then what about all that kissing stuff?” the older man demanded.

“Well, I want to. Everybody does it,” Nagase insisted.

“That’s not how you do it,” Shigeru opposed. “You don’t just kiss people for the action’s sake. You kiss someone you like, otherwise it won’t feel right anyway.”

Nagase blinked at that. “Oh?”

“That’s right,” Shigeru nodded. “And it’s bad enough even if you actually like the person for a first try.”

“What do you mean?” the younger boy wanted to know.

“Well,” Shigeru explained, “when you actually get to it, there too is plenty to do wrong. So you had better find someone you really like and who will discover the dos and donts with you.”

Nagase nodded again. Shigeru was quite relieved to find that the boy had finally gone quiet. Apparently he wanted to think on all the new information he had gotten. Unfortunately, the silence didn’t last. A few minutes later Nagase got up again and walked over to Shigeru. The band leader blinked as Nagase wordlessly pulled him by the arm, forcing him to stand and dragging him over to the bed. His eyes went wide. Nagase sat down on the bed again, looking up at the other man.

“The only person I really like enough to want to kiss is you,” the boy explained.

Shigeru almost had a heart attack.

“WHAT?!?!?!” he demanded.

Nagase shrugged. “I really like you.”

“But you said you liked girls,” Shigeru reminded him.

“Yeah, I like how they look and how they walk and, well.... I don’t know. But I don’t actually `like´ any girl like that, really.”

“You don’t,” Shigeru sighed.

Nagase shook his head. “So, will you kiss me?” he asked innocently.

Shigeru shook his head in confusion and desperation. “What.... Tomo-chan, we can’t.... you don’t just go and kiss a good friend.”

“But you said it’s supposed to be someone you like,” Nagase pouted in a “what-now?!”-voice.

“Well, yes, of course,” Shigeru admitted.

“And you know a lot about kissing, right?” Nagase continued. “You can teach me.”

The band leader looked at the boy in front of him. He would lie if he insisted that he didn’t want to give it a try, but it was Tomo-chan and he was young and innocent and it was simply all the way wrong.

“I can’t,” Shigeru told him shortly.

Nagase’s face fell, making Shigeru’s heart ache.

“Why not?” the boy asked warily. “Do you not like me?”

The band leader sank his head. There was no escaping it. They had come that far and the boy wouldn’t stop asking anyway.

“I do like you, Tomo-chan,” Shigeru said softly. “In fact,” he paused shortly, licking dry lips, “in fact I like you so bad I’d love to kiss you.”

At that Nagase beamed at him. Before he could speak up, though, Shigeru continued.

“The problem is, I like you so bad, I think I.... might want to do more than just kiss.”

He looked at Nagase, trying to assess whether the boy understood his meaning. And it seemed that for once Nagase caught on pretty quickly.

“You mean like Koichi, right?” he said, blushing a bit.

Shigeru’s heart skipped a beat at the sight, but he nodded still. “That’s right, like that.”

Nagase looked closely at Shigeru.

“You like me like that?” he asked in wonder.

The band leader just nodded.

“How long?” the boy wanted to know.

“How is it you’re always clever when it’s bothersome?” Shigeru complained.

Nagase blinked at that and the older man shook his head.

“Forget it,” he told Nagase. “I think I started to feel like that at around the end of our last tour. I started to seriously look when you went bare chest and stuff.”

“Why didn’t you say anything?” Nagase wondered.

“What should I say?!” Shigeru demanded. “The fact alone that you want to kiss me.... I’m ten years older than you, I’m so out of your generation and you’re so out of my league.”

“Eh?” Nagase made.

The older man just waved him off. “Forget that. In any way, it’s not right. You’ve been sleeping in my bed ever since you were 15. I practically co-raised you to be a man. And if Taichi knew about this, he’d kill me.”

“We don’t have to tell Taichi-kun,” the boy offered.

“That’s not the main problem,” Shigeru insisted. “I can’t do that. I shouldn’t even want to do it.”

“But you do want it,” Nagase insisted.

“I told you I want it.”

“Then let’s do it. It’s not wrong if both parties want it,” the boy said simply.

“I told you, I’m not about the kissing,” the band leader reminded him trying to get Nagase off the idea.

The boy nodded. “You want to have sex.”

Shigeru blushed furiously at that.

Nagase laughed. “You look funny like that.”

Shigeru huffed at him.

The boy kept chuckling as he brought himself up onto his knees, touching Shigeru’s cheeks lightly in wonder.

“Hot,” he analysed.

“What are you doing there?!” the older man demanded.

“It’s okay,” he told Shigeru.

Now it was Shigeru who blinked. “Eh?”

“If you want to have sex,” Nagase explained.

The band leader just stared at him.

“I mean, I won’t do anything tonight, but if you want to kiss me and if it works out.... I mean, I like you and I want to kiss you and I’m thinking I might want to do that too.”

“Tomo-chan, do you know what you’re saying there?” Shigeru asked breathlessly.

For the second time that night Nagase pulled at Shigeru’s sleeve, effectively bringing the other man closer.

“You want to, right?” Nagase asked, giving a sharp pull that had Shigeru more fall than sit onto the bed.

The older man just stared at the other in disbelief, totally lost to the fact that the boy was actually quite effectively seducing him. He felt Nagase’s hand on his shoulder and a shiver ran down his spine. There was no way this could happen. But the boy was more than willing, even taking the initiative, practically begging to be kissed.

“Tomo-chan,” he breathed, closing his eyes as the boy brought their lips together.

And the world as he knew it collapsed. He didn’t dare move or breathe, afraid that he might shatter this moment like glass on the floor. After a few more moments Nagase pulled back a bit to whisper against his lips.

“You’re the one who knows how it’s done,” he told the other man. “Why don’t you show me?”

Slowly, still hesitantly, Shigeru began to softly nibble at Nagase’s lips, learning their texture. They were soft and warm and utterly perfect. A jolt of delight went through him as he realised that Nagase was trying to copy his efforts. Actually getting excited he pressed his lips against the other’s more firmly, pecking repeatedly, then flicked his tongue out shortly to sway over Nagase’s lips. The boy gasped at that.

Apparently Shigeru had surprised him, but only a moment later Nagase was all into it again and gave Shigeru back as he received. Soon they were entangled in what Shigeru considered to be a rather decent snog. He hadn’t had one of those in ages and enjoyed the experience tremendously. They only interrupted for short instructions like, “don’t push too hard”, or “use the tip only”. Nagase proved quite adept, learning quickly and happily, which added to Shigeru’s excitement. As he felt Nagase’s hand fall onto his chest, though, he broke the kiss.

“Maybe we should stop here,” he suggested.

“Why?” the boy asked, face flushed and eyes gleaming.

The sight was just about irresistible. But he couldn’t.

The band leader shook his head. “There would be no good in continuing this,” he told Nagase.

The boy looked at him for a moment and nodded. He smiled at Shigeru. “That was nice,” he said.

“Yes, it was,” the older man agreed.

“So, shall we sleep now?” Nagase suggested.

“Yes, we should,” the band leader mused. “I think I’ll occupy the couch tonight, though.”

Nagase’s face fell at the information.

“Don’t worry,” Shigeru told him, cupping his face softly. “I’ll come back to the bed. And when I do.... we’ll really share it.”

Nagase immediately caught that this was a meaningful statement, so he nodded obediently and lay down to go to sleep. Then he abruptly sat back up again.

“Shigeru-kun,” he called out.

“Yes?” the band leader asked.

“Suki da yo,” the boy blurted out, blushing.

Shigeru nodded at him, smiling. “Hai, suki da.”

Nagase beamed at that and finally lay back down to get some sleep - which was something Shigeru did not get that night. Too many things were twirling in his head, but the one and foremost thought was how he really loved the boy, no matter the odds.

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Okay, I did it. Hope you liked. ^_^"

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