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This is my first entry and gives me a chance to explain what I'm about really....
I'm 25, from Middlesbrough, UK. A grotty little town really but I've just got a flat in the outskirts which is much nicer than the town.
I'm new to wicca although I have been reading up on it for the past 7 years. My family are quite against it due to their christian faith, which gets to me because paganism tends to have respect for other faiths. So anyway, before I start any ritual work, I'll be practicing meditations for a year and noting the results eg. contact with guides and feelings, how it affects my mood, experiences ect. I've got to ground myself before actually practicing any magick.
I'm going to stop taking my medication - Clopixol, for schizophrenia because I put on 10 stones since taking antipsychotic drugs. I used to be a size 10 now I'm a 22 and it's all down to this medication which turns off the "full" trigger. Besides, I'd rather be crazy than fat!! I'll join the gym after the new year and starting a diet so I'll be cutting down on the carbs and fat and drinking herbal tea instead of milky tea and coffee. I'll go for more walks when the ice subsides and go on my exercise bike every day. I should be down to a reasonable size (12 - 14) by next xmas and down to a size 10 in half a year after that. I really want to do it to piss of this mate of mine who hinted that he slept with me out of desperation. When I look good, there's no way I'll sleep with him in a million years since he is also quite fat and has missing teeth! He don't look good put it that way...plus when I'm thinner I know I can get decent guys like I did before. Fuck him!!
I play guitar a bit. I'm going to learn some new songs and start going to the accoustic jam night at a pub in town. Stop smoking and train my voice. I was invited by the promoter so it could be pretty cool. I'd love to start a musical career. I used to write songs and I think I'll start again. I suppose the more you practice the better you get and that counts for anything really.
anyway, after Christmas I'm making these changes:-
1. No alcohol
2. Start diet
3. exercise more
4. start writing songs on reason and on guitar and vocals
5. quit clopixol
6. meditate twice a day
7. keep a moon and meditation diary
8. enjoy life more during the day
I'm 25, from Middlesbrough, UK. A grotty little town really but I've just got a flat in the outskirts which is much nicer than the town.
I'm new to wicca although I have been reading up on it for the past 7 years. My family are quite against it due to their christian faith, which gets to me because paganism tends to have respect for other faiths. So anyway, before I start any ritual work, I'll be practicing meditations for a year and noting the results eg. contact with guides and feelings, how it affects my mood, experiences ect. I've got to ground myself before actually practicing any magick.
I'm going to stop taking my medication - Clopixol, for schizophrenia because I put on 10 stones since taking antipsychotic drugs. I used to be a size 10 now I'm a 22 and it's all down to this medication which turns off the "full" trigger. Besides, I'd rather be crazy than fat!! I'll join the gym after the new year and starting a diet so I'll be cutting down on the carbs and fat and drinking herbal tea instead of milky tea and coffee. I'll go for more walks when the ice subsides and go on my exercise bike every day. I should be down to a reasonable size (12 - 14) by next xmas and down to a size 10 in half a year after that. I really want to do it to piss of this mate of mine who hinted that he slept with me out of desperation. When I look good, there's no way I'll sleep with him in a million years since he is also quite fat and has missing teeth! He don't look good put it that way...plus when I'm thinner I know I can get decent guys like I did before. Fuck him!!
I play guitar a bit. I'm going to learn some new songs and start going to the accoustic jam night at a pub in town. Stop smoking and train my voice. I was invited by the promoter so it could be pretty cool. I'd love to start a musical career. I used to write songs and I think I'll start again. I suppose the more you practice the better you get and that counts for anything really.
anyway, after Christmas I'm making these changes:-
1. No alcohol
2. Start diet
3. exercise more
4. start writing songs on reason and on guitar and vocals
5. quit clopixol
6. meditate twice a day
7. keep a moon and meditation diary
8. enjoy life more during the day