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i got my short paper written...today was odd...had some mood swings and ups and downs...no calligraphy today and had to sit through a really boring lecture about (actually i don't even know what it was about)...then i went over to Ali's place with dansby and kyle and we hung around for a bit...would have liked to stay longer but i had to drive home to tampa...
I still feel underappreciated though and to be honest I can't read the situation at all...it's just weird because with EVERYONE else I have normal friendships with normal conversations...and when we're in groups we have a lot of fun...but whenever we're alone my mind draws blanks and we never have any conversations or anything...and it's when we have these awkward hangouts that makes me wonder if we're really friends or not...even though I can't stress enough how much I want us to be close friends...I think maybe that's why I get so quiet and weird when we're alone...because I'm trying too hard...if that makes sense...why can't everything work out and just be easy
I still feel underappreciated though and to be honest I can't read the situation at all...it's just weird because with EVERYONE else I have normal friendships with normal conversations...and when we're in groups we have a lot of fun...but whenever we're alone my mind draws blanks and we never have any conversations or anything...and it's when we have these awkward hangouts that makes me wonder if we're really friends or not...even though I can't stress enough how much I want us to be close friends...I think maybe that's why I get so quiet and weird when we're alone...because I'm trying too hard...if that makes sense...why can't everything work out and just be easy