i guess what they say is true
well i sapose what they say is true. "you really dont realize what you have and how good it is till you fuck up" anna is right i say i didnt mean anything by it but i still did it and wouldnt of if i didnt mean anything by it. i mean like i know what i have is the best thing that has ever happened to me EVER. i just dont know why i did it i wasnt thinking that for damn sure. im at a point in my life where im seriously gonna go talk to someone cuz i have other problems i need to take care of. like i get angry over almost everything i hate to admit it but i do. so i am gonna get this taken care of somehow. i know i dont have any insurance but i will do what i can. i am seriously willing to do anything to fix the fucked up thing i have done i know i cant take it back or anything but i will do anything. i also think i know why i get angry about a lot of stuff now. cuz i wasnt like this till my aunt died. like ever sence i lost here well she was my best friend i havenbt had someone to really talk to about alot and it makes me angry. it really dose. i just need to stop holding back from anna and talk to her. it is hard but i gotta do what i can to keep us togeather cuz i love her to death and if i lost her i dont know what i would do i know people would say just move on but i wouldnt be able to i seiously love her to death. i have never loved another person the same. or as much. i just need to stop and realize the good things i have befor i go and do the dumb from now on i gotta thinkbefor i speak i guess is the word for it. but i sapose i have nothing more to say. just this last thing anna baby i love you so much i really do you have no clue after last nighthow bad i felt. i just want you to knwo im sorry i know i cant say sorry enough but i am.