(no subject)

Dec 02, 2007 00:06


i haven't been myself lately at all. it's true and really evident, especially yesterday. i seem more hostile now and try to say things that "aren't me" and worry about what people think of me and what people say.

that's not me. but that's what happend

is someone took my trust and ruined it. after 3 years of being someones friend and a year relationship you'd think that you could trust that person to say to you what is true. but she says one thing and goes behind your back and does another and it killed me inside and i thought i could trust her with my life, but not anymore and it's going to take some time to rebuild my trust with others.

someone today told me that i should rush into a relationship because i'd only end up hurting myself and the girl that i'd be with.

i'm going to wait until i'm back to my old self. they said i should wait until at least after new years. which is completely understandable and will give me enough time to say "hey, i can get my emotions under control" it's not that easy to do in any relationship, especially ones that are longer than a year

and my new years resolution is now.

to become what i was before i hit this pothole in the road. to become the fun-loving austin, not the cocky, self centered, egocentric trying-to-save-face kid that i am now.

i will get there. i just wish you would help me...
Previous post Next post
Up
[]