(Private locked) I promise myself...
That from now on, if I see Claire, Mary, or Jon anywhere, and I do not have witnesses, I will not go near them. I will not do more than say hello if they come over to me. There might be small talk, but it will be confined to the weather, their studies, and the state of the food at the college.
I will not poke the bears. I will not engage. I will not even give the appearance of discussing them or watching them. I will ignore them. I will not give them the 'cut direct', but neither will I do more than be civil to them.
I don't have to like everyone, not everyone has to like me. It's ok if I find someone to be less than to my tastes. Even if I want to think better of them.
Maybe Ian was right. Maybe I do wear my heart on my sleeve too much. Other people's opinions really do matter too much to me. I need to get over that.
The worst part is this: I feel like, in spite of telling Claire my real thoughts, she still got the better of me in that confrontation.
I will not poke the bears. I will not engage. I will not even give the appearance of discussing them or watching them. I will ignore them. I will not give them the 'cut direct', but neither will I do more than be civil to them.
I don't have to like everyone, not everyone has to like me. It's ok if I find someone to be less than to my tastes. Even if I want to think better of them.
Maybe Ian was right. Maybe I do wear my heart on my sleeve too much. Other people's opinions really do matter too much to me. I need to get over that.
The worst part is this: I feel like, in spite of telling Claire my real thoughts, she still got the better of me in that confrontation.