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so finally the finals are done whoo hoo. today marissa and i went to redwood bagel for lunch. then we went to target and marissa did some shopping.after that we went to redwood again to meet dan,ian,brian,emitt(im not sure how to spell his name)and tim. then marissa and dan brian and i left and went to dans house. we hung out there for a couple of hours it was cool then i came home. wanted to go to the guys bball game but i didnt have a ride, same w/the girls bball. oh well i guess. so im pretty bored and when im bored it makes me think lol about sad stuff and i dont like that.i think about how long i have liked him and nothing has happened. i try to tell myself not to like him and give up but then i see or talk to him and my feelings like take over. i wish i had the guts to at least call him sometime and be like hey want to hang out. but its been awhile since we have hung out. and i think that he would think it was weird if i called him. and plus he is always busy w/his friends u know and i dont to annoy him. i duno. maybe if i see him over the break some how at some party or something lol i dunno. im pretty sad huh. but i wish i could could just call him. yea and it makes me think about how i dont hang out w/kristin or blaire anymore. i love my friends now dont get me wrong. but i do miss hanging out w/them, i mean i have been friends w/the sheidts since kindergarten. and now we never hangout. and blaire and i dont go so far back but we came really close and she was there for me all the time and helped me. we hung out all the time. i do miss both of them. and i think about my dad and his problem and his work and how we dont have that much money and i think about my grandpa. my life isnt that bad it could be worse. but yea. and im just venting everything right now. the maroon 5 CD is kinda making me sad. if u have the CD u should listen to the lyrics. but on a good note its all most x-mas! im very excited! maybe my grandpa will be out of the hospital for at least the day. and i think about my friends now and how lucky i am to have friends like them! u know who u r! especially to marissa dan cassi ross meaghan for listening to what i have to say and putting up w/me and listening to my pointless thoughts and stories. that reminds me ross. the scrapbook! well whoa im feeling better now. this journal helps me vent. haha sorry for the ppl that read this. its a lot of pointless stuff. hahah if i dont talk to u or update for awhile.have a merry christmas and happy new year and awesome break!