Hetero nazis.
I got a new job finally. I'm not really looking forward to losing my lazy-ass time, but it's really for the best. I'm a high maintenance girl who wants lots of clothes. And CDs... and an iPod. IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK?
Tomorrow I'm going home, which sucks because that means summer is almost over. No more staying with friends, all-nighters, early morning workouts. Pssh. Fuck this, I'm dropping out of school.
And this whole time I hoped Rhiannon would get to come up and see me, but she's been moving so I have to wait much longer to see her. I really miss Katie too.
And you know, it's hard having such important people move so far away. When I left Ohio I thought I'd never be happy again, my heart was in that town and it still is. I hate Tennessee - if I had the choice I'd give everything up to go back for a little while. The best thing I got out of TN was Rhiannon, and now she's gone away and left me here. I mean I have great friends now, but I don't feel like they give their all into having a true friendship with me. There's no sense of family anymore. I don't fully trust any of them.
Right now I'm more or less just skipping from group to group, hanging with different crowds, having my fun... looking for someone to attach to. Don't get me wrong, I think a lot of people are great, just not up to my level in terms of interest and intellect. It's almost like they live different lives than me now. Jamie, Amanda, Amber, Jacqueline... I just don't know anymore.
It's these damn jobs. Ever since we all got jobs we haven't had time for one another.
I am actually excited for school to start. I'm taking my first computer classes and getting a second chance at Chemistry (which I failed miserably my sophomore year... science, I hate you.) Things are looking better.. I have a good-paying job now, I'm in great shape, and I feel motivated to get done what needs to be done. On top of that, I've become closer to people and I'm gradually opening up to new people. Especially Kevin, who is already as close to me as a person could be, he's really starting to understand me, which most people don't. Sadly he lives so far away. =( Blah.
Tomorrow I'm going home, which sucks because that means summer is almost over. No more staying with friends, all-nighters, early morning workouts. Pssh. Fuck this, I'm dropping out of school.
And this whole time I hoped Rhiannon would get to come up and see me, but she's been moving so I have to wait much longer to see her. I really miss Katie too.
And you know, it's hard having such important people move so far away. When I left Ohio I thought I'd never be happy again, my heart was in that town and it still is. I hate Tennessee - if I had the choice I'd give everything up to go back for a little while. The best thing I got out of TN was Rhiannon, and now she's gone away and left me here. I mean I have great friends now, but I don't feel like they give their all into having a true friendship with me. There's no sense of family anymore. I don't fully trust any of them.
Right now I'm more or less just skipping from group to group, hanging with different crowds, having my fun... looking for someone to attach to. Don't get me wrong, I think a lot of people are great, just not up to my level in terms of interest and intellect. It's almost like they live different lives than me now. Jamie, Amanda, Amber, Jacqueline... I just don't know anymore.
It's these damn jobs. Ever since we all got jobs we haven't had time for one another.
I am actually excited for school to start. I'm taking my first computer classes and getting a second chance at Chemistry (which I failed miserably my sophomore year... science, I hate you.) Things are looking better.. I have a good-paying job now, I'm in great shape, and I feel motivated to get done what needs to be done. On top of that, I've become closer to people and I'm gradually opening up to new people. Especially Kevin, who is already as close to me as a person could be, he's really starting to understand me, which most people don't. Sadly he lives so far away. =( Blah.