Back To School...
I have no idea what to write anymore. There's nothing to talk about. I miss Christmas break and being able to sleep in.
I want a girlfriend but I'm not sure what I'm really looking for. I just want some new girl to come to our school tomorrow and for her to be an awesome person and she would like me and it would be perfect. or just for me to get a chance to start liking the someone I already know but I just dont know whats going on there b/c its complicated.
Oh haha well im late everyday to school so I had to go to the office and Ms. Coyle gave me Saturday school and she said if I'm late to school one more time I'll lose my parking pass. WHAT parking pass? im 14. and she wrote out this whole paragraph about it on this thing for my parents to sign.
I burned 2 holes in my shirt during a bottlerocket war with Landon, Cody, and Nick over at Anna's on New Years. Then me and Nick snuck inside and went to an upstairs window and were shootin Cody and Landon from there since they couldnt shoot back at the house.
I got Halo 2 for Christmas and its the coolest game. My uncle is staying with us for a week or something.
Is it possible to Hate someone because you care about them so much? That goes back to that deleted post I wrote earlier:
Right now I really can't stand someone. I pretend to be nice to them but the second they turn their back I just start uttering really mean things to myself about them. And the thing is they deny everything. And it makes me so mad that it used to be better but they went and screwed everything up for themselves. Maybe youre reading this and you'll know who you are: if you used to be happy, but now you've lost your old good friends (more than just me), your life is down the drain, and you find yourself doing things you NEVER used to do, then it might be you, and I think youd know it if you have any sense of tension between us. And I'd like to say I hate you, but I won't. Hate is too strong, but I'm going to keep trying even though right now I don't think youll ever straighten out. And I hate to think I could've done something in the past to stop it, but I didn't b/c I didn't know that what I DIDNT do would end up with you and this whole new reputation you've made yourself. you used to be so different but I guess youll say youve 'grown up' but if you think about it: acting stupid for attention, being with the WRONG crowd entirely, all the horrible things you do to fit these new friends, and then something else I found out that blew all this up, are all really immature things. You need to look at your life and see if youre really who youve always wanted to be. Loathe is a better word for Hate.
But then a friend of mine change my perspective that maybe loathe or hate isnt the word but its more Pity.
I'm not sure.
And if you think I'm talking about you don't blow up at me on the comments. At least ask me because it might not be you and I wrote that so that the ONE PERSON could see what I see and not for everyone else to get involved. If you think it's you just ask me so only you will know its you and noone else.
Well contrary to what I wrote at the begining I guess I did have plenty to write about. Maybe too much but oh well.
Comment.
I want a girlfriend but I'm not sure what I'm really looking for. I just want some new girl to come to our school tomorrow and for her to be an awesome person and she would like me and it would be perfect. or just for me to get a chance to start liking the someone I already know but I just dont know whats going on there b/c its complicated.
Oh haha well im late everyday to school so I had to go to the office and Ms. Coyle gave me Saturday school and she said if I'm late to school one more time I'll lose my parking pass. WHAT parking pass? im 14. and she wrote out this whole paragraph about it on this thing for my parents to sign.
I burned 2 holes in my shirt during a bottlerocket war with Landon, Cody, and Nick over at Anna's on New Years. Then me and Nick snuck inside and went to an upstairs window and were shootin Cody and Landon from there since they couldnt shoot back at the house.
I got Halo 2 for Christmas and its the coolest game. My uncle is staying with us for a week or something.
Is it possible to Hate someone because you care about them so much? That goes back to that deleted post I wrote earlier:
Right now I really can't stand someone. I pretend to be nice to them but the second they turn their back I just start uttering really mean things to myself about them. And the thing is they deny everything. And it makes me so mad that it used to be better but they went and screwed everything up for themselves. Maybe youre reading this and you'll know who you are: if you used to be happy, but now you've lost your old good friends (more than just me), your life is down the drain, and you find yourself doing things you NEVER used to do, then it might be you, and I think youd know it if you have any sense of tension between us. And I'd like to say I hate you, but I won't. Hate is too strong, but I'm going to keep trying even though right now I don't think youll ever straighten out. And I hate to think I could've done something in the past to stop it, but I didn't b/c I didn't know that what I DIDNT do would end up with you and this whole new reputation you've made yourself. you used to be so different but I guess youll say youve 'grown up' but if you think about it: acting stupid for attention, being with the WRONG crowd entirely, all the horrible things you do to fit these new friends, and then something else I found out that blew all this up, are all really immature things. You need to look at your life and see if youre really who youve always wanted to be. Loathe is a better word for Hate.
But then a friend of mine change my perspective that maybe loathe or hate isnt the word but its more Pity.
I'm not sure.
And if you think I'm talking about you don't blow up at me on the comments. At least ask me because it might not be you and I wrote that so that the ONE PERSON could see what I see and not for everyone else to get involved. If you think it's you just ask me so only you will know its you and noone else.
Well contrary to what I wrote at the begining I guess I did have plenty to write about. Maybe too much but oh well.
Comment.