Camp Is The Best Ever!
There are seriosuly no words to explain this enough but I've got to try anyway:
This entire entry is going to be dedicated to FC Camp at ALabama. I love it and I love everyone who goes there. I just had the BEST week of my entire life. Im so upset about leaving though and I hate coming back to reality but It happens. I made some of the best friendships and I think I could honestly say I would die for a LOT of people at that camp. And another thing is b/c I wouldn't be afraid of dying anymore. Its actually not scary now b/c Emily (Ann) Davis and Rebecca Schug apparently led an AWESOME girls devotion wich got some of the girls thinking and about 10 of us sat down and Audra broke down and talked to us guys and told us how much she loved us and how much she didn't want us to die in our sins and apologized for being a bad example and basically turned herself around and that got to a few of my friends who then later that night got baptized making it 6 including Kelly's baptism the other night. And it wasn't until later that night that it really hit me and I realized it and it made me change for the better and now I seriously feel like an incredible void has been refilled and I'm actually content with my life again. And it makes me so happy that I have people I can tell stuff I've never told anyone and they told me stuff and we basically just told eachother going down the line some of the things we've done that we're ashamed of and it makes you feel better because it shows you're not alone and I like knowing that there are people like that in the world and at camp you always feel like you belong and it basically, for lack of a less used term, "recharges your battery" and every year I recharge a little but then get away from it and this year, more than ever, I feel like I can keep myself fully charged throughout the year but I could still be wrong and I know I could easily slip up which is why I'm gonna do EVERYTHING in my power to keep in touch with everyone to remind myself to keep it up every time I see or talk to them and I know I can do that because Laura was crying after Audra's "devo" and she came up and hugged me and told me to never hang out with people who can bring me down even if it means staying home on a Friday night because she told me if I EVER need someone to talk to on that Friday night or any other night for that matter then I can call her and knowing that I have friends like that is one of the best things ever. I actually almost didn't come to camp and that scares me b/c if I hadnt come none of this wouldve happened and if I missed this and died before my heart was pricked again I would have gone to hell. And I wouldnt have thought it but I would sin and ask for forgiveness half-heartedly and then just do it again thinking "Oh I'll just get forgiven later." which is one of the STUPIDEST things you can do because that is NOT how it works at all. I'm just glad God's given me friends who talked me into coming this year and now if I keep this up I have no doubt in my mind that I'll be coming back every year because I have no idea what I would do without my friends and my camp. It gives me a chance to isolate and focus on what I need to be focusing. This has definately convinced me to go to Florida College too. I need something like that to keep me going.
So please if you can keep me on track I want you to try and talk to me every day and keep me focused even if we just talk about stupid stuff like movies or whatever it will always be in the back of my mind who you are and what you stand for and even just that can help me. And I know it sounds selfish but if you do it for me I will DEFINATELY try to do the same for you.
And if you read all of this I'm sorry for rambling lol but I meant everything I said and it makes me happy that I'm actually ready for the end and I have nothing else I really need and I'm ready to give up everything b/c I seriosuly know what I value now.
Friends can make or break you and I'm so happy that I have friends that make me better. And my friend Jake said not to be sad about leaving camp, but you can make everywhere a camp. Even Burger King lol.
This entire entry is going to be dedicated to FC Camp at ALabama. I love it and I love everyone who goes there. I just had the BEST week of my entire life. Im so upset about leaving though and I hate coming back to reality but It happens. I made some of the best friendships and I think I could honestly say I would die for a LOT of people at that camp. And another thing is b/c I wouldn't be afraid of dying anymore. Its actually not scary now b/c Emily (Ann) Davis and Rebecca Schug apparently led an AWESOME girls devotion wich got some of the girls thinking and about 10 of us sat down and Audra broke down and talked to us guys and told us how much she loved us and how much she didn't want us to die in our sins and apologized for being a bad example and basically turned herself around and that got to a few of my friends who then later that night got baptized making it 6 including Kelly's baptism the other night. And it wasn't until later that night that it really hit me and I realized it and it made me change for the better and now I seriously feel like an incredible void has been refilled and I'm actually content with my life again. And it makes me so happy that I have people I can tell stuff I've never told anyone and they told me stuff and we basically just told eachother going down the line some of the things we've done that we're ashamed of and it makes you feel better because it shows you're not alone and I like knowing that there are people like that in the world and at camp you always feel like you belong and it basically, for lack of a less used term, "recharges your battery" and every year I recharge a little but then get away from it and this year, more than ever, I feel like I can keep myself fully charged throughout the year but I could still be wrong and I know I could easily slip up which is why I'm gonna do EVERYTHING in my power to keep in touch with everyone to remind myself to keep it up every time I see or talk to them and I know I can do that because Laura was crying after Audra's "devo" and she came up and hugged me and told me to never hang out with people who can bring me down even if it means staying home on a Friday night because she told me if I EVER need someone to talk to on that Friday night or any other night for that matter then I can call her and knowing that I have friends like that is one of the best things ever. I actually almost didn't come to camp and that scares me b/c if I hadnt come none of this wouldve happened and if I missed this and died before my heart was pricked again I would have gone to hell. And I wouldnt have thought it but I would sin and ask for forgiveness half-heartedly and then just do it again thinking "Oh I'll just get forgiven later." which is one of the STUPIDEST things you can do because that is NOT how it works at all. I'm just glad God's given me friends who talked me into coming this year and now if I keep this up I have no doubt in my mind that I'll be coming back every year because I have no idea what I would do without my friends and my camp. It gives me a chance to isolate and focus on what I need to be focusing. This has definately convinced me to go to Florida College too. I need something like that to keep me going.
So please if you can keep me on track I want you to try and talk to me every day and keep me focused even if we just talk about stupid stuff like movies or whatever it will always be in the back of my mind who you are and what you stand for and even just that can help me. And I know it sounds selfish but if you do it for me I will DEFINATELY try to do the same for you.
And if you read all of this I'm sorry for rambling lol but I meant everything I said and it makes me happy that I'm actually ready for the end and I have nothing else I really need and I'm ready to give up everything b/c I seriosuly know what I value now.
Friends can make or break you and I'm so happy that I have friends that make me better. And my friend Jake said not to be sad about leaving camp, but you can make everywhere a camp. Even Burger King lol.