Tears, tears, tears...
Ok, I swear I'm PMS-ing. But I can't help how I feel!
I don't like that those water droplets stream out of my eyes like a running tap.
I don't like that certain thoughts automatically turn that tap on.
I don't like that I have been crying quite badly quite frequently the past two weeks.
Things are ok, and they will stay ok too.
I'm just... worn out.
My eyes are protesting too.
I honestly don't think I've ever cried that painfully and that much in just a fortnight.
What is wrong with me?!??
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I kind of expected that I wouldn't be happiest back home,
and I am proven right.
Yet, I don't think I could have stood the idea of not coming home after what had happened two months ago.
My brother needs me; my family needs me.
But I come home and fall right back into how it used to be, what I used to be and how I used to act.
I feel like all that improvement I made on my character while I was in the UK has gone to waste
and there's little I can do at home to help improve certain situations as well, i.e. mostly with my brother.
And, and.
And I just feel somewhat hopeless.
And very unhappy.
I miss Gerald, I'm not happy here, I'm not happy away from him, I'm not happy enough with my family and friends here...
I honestly might as well go back to York.
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Fudge nuggets.
I hate this.
I don't like that those water droplets stream out of my eyes like a running tap.
I don't like that certain thoughts automatically turn that tap on.
I don't like that I have been crying quite badly quite frequently the past two weeks.
Things are ok, and they will stay ok too.
I'm just... worn out.
My eyes are protesting too.
I honestly don't think I've ever cried that painfully and that much in just a fortnight.
What is wrong with me?!??
-
I kind of expected that I wouldn't be happiest back home,
and I am proven right.
Yet, I don't think I could have stood the idea of not coming home after what had happened two months ago.
My brother needs me; my family needs me.
But I come home and fall right back into how it used to be, what I used to be and how I used to act.
I feel like all that improvement I made on my character while I was in the UK has gone to waste
and there's little I can do at home to help improve certain situations as well, i.e. mostly with my brother.
And, and.
And I just feel somewhat hopeless.
And very unhappy.
I miss Gerald, I'm not happy here, I'm not happy away from him, I'm not happy enough with my family and friends here...
I honestly might as well go back to York.
-
Fudge nuggets.
I hate this.