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what the hell is wrong with me am i such a bad person i try and i try and all that happens is i get stomped on by all my "friends"....... its been this way as long as i can remember carrie used to do it but she fixed it. am i horrable? am i a whore to all of you? the supposed what was it greg said "virgin hunter" yes i kno all of the names all of you called me. if one of my friends keeps their mouth shut the other talks. what am i supposed to do?
i got to thinking about things when lauren died, if i died all of you would come to my furneral right? but how many belonged there? Carrie Josh Dan Emma and a few others sure but not Kim or Emi or anyone else. i am the friend that you turn to when no one else answers their phone and you are desprate.
ok i was fine with that being the last person because i got to hang out with you guys every once and a while but you kno call me or fuck off i dont care anymore i dont need you to make me feel like a good person anymore i just need true friends i can call on when i need help or hang out with when i need them.
leave me be to sleep leave me be to wander away leave me alone to suffer lonely.
i dont care
i want you to kno that i have given up so much for you guys while you guys all just whatever me all the time. i try to be a good friend i tried my hardest but you all just brush me aside.
i thought you were my friend until someone decided to say i cheated on greg with steve <- which didnt happen. then you all were gone even kimmie. carrie stood by me until i got sick of being stepped on by her and i told her to leave me alone until she learned to respect me.
carrie tries to be my friend. no one else does.
FUCK YOU ALL
josh dan and emma try to be my friend Hell my old co workers at blockbuster and better friends than three quarters of the people reading this!
leave me alone ok
i dont want any calls "why are you mad at me?" "megan what did i do?" i dont want them and i wont take them.
chalk it up as my being a bitch but after being stomped on at home and being labled a cheater for something i never did i am sorry i am too scarred from the past i need to move on so when i move on i will leave you all behind thank God
i will be better without you all i am closing my lj down for those i dont like anymore.
go ahead "Megan Bash" say i am a bitch say i have no grounds for everything i just said say that i am over exagerating. i dont care.
i'm happy until i think of all the "friends" i dont see anymore. i am happy until i remember "oh such and so had a party last weekend..." it hurts you think i wont find out but i will i always do. its not always carrie its lj and myspace blogs and kimmie tells me alot too surprisingly...
i dont love you all any more i hate you guys for doing this to me.
i hate you for making me tell my best friend its alright to have a party without me when in my heart i hated saying it i wanted her to say that its not ok even when i kno that she knew i was thinking it.
its cruel to do that to someone to exile them to the point of exiling them from their best friend no only friends party.
burn in hell all of you
i got to thinking about things when lauren died, if i died all of you would come to my furneral right? but how many belonged there? Carrie Josh Dan Emma and a few others sure but not Kim or Emi or anyone else. i am the friend that you turn to when no one else answers their phone and you are desprate.
ok i was fine with that being the last person because i got to hang out with you guys every once and a while but you kno call me or fuck off i dont care anymore i dont need you to make me feel like a good person anymore i just need true friends i can call on when i need help or hang out with when i need them.
leave me be to sleep leave me be to wander away leave me alone to suffer lonely.
i dont care
i want you to kno that i have given up so much for you guys while you guys all just whatever me all the time. i try to be a good friend i tried my hardest but you all just brush me aside.
i thought you were my friend until someone decided to say i cheated on greg with steve <- which didnt happen. then you all were gone even kimmie. carrie stood by me until i got sick of being stepped on by her and i told her to leave me alone until she learned to respect me.
carrie tries to be my friend. no one else does.
FUCK YOU ALL
josh dan and emma try to be my friend Hell my old co workers at blockbuster and better friends than three quarters of the people reading this!
leave me alone ok
i dont want any calls "why are you mad at me?" "megan what did i do?" i dont want them and i wont take them.
chalk it up as my being a bitch but after being stomped on at home and being labled a cheater for something i never did i am sorry i am too scarred from the past i need to move on so when i move on i will leave you all behind thank God
i will be better without you all i am closing my lj down for those i dont like anymore.
go ahead "Megan Bash" say i am a bitch say i have no grounds for everything i just said say that i am over exagerating. i dont care.
i'm happy until i think of all the "friends" i dont see anymore. i am happy until i remember "oh such and so had a party last weekend..." it hurts you think i wont find out but i will i always do. its not always carrie its lj and myspace blogs and kimmie tells me alot too surprisingly...
i dont love you all any more i hate you guys for doing this to me.
i hate you for making me tell my best friend its alright to have a party without me when in my heart i hated saying it i wanted her to say that its not ok even when i kno that she knew i was thinking it.
its cruel to do that to someone to exile them to the point of exiling them from their best friend no only friends party.
burn in hell all of you