As if my life couldn't get any more fucked...
Well, I was very wrong about that.
Soooooooooooo, as you may have already guessed, I did NOT go to the Houston show nor the Dallas one. Despite having bought my tickets, despite having been excited this whole month, despite this being the only thing I was looking forward to, despite everything, I wasn't able to go. Leila's friend (the one who would be driving us) backed out at the very last minute. I get the call from her saying we won't be going the night before the show. Now, imagine being given the greatest gift ever, something you've wanted more than anything, something that would possibly be the best thing ever to happen to you, having it ripped from your hands, stomped on, broken into a million pieces, having a tank run over it and you, reversed, then being exploded by land mines that were placed right under you, being blown to bits, then having a werewolf come out, eat your heart, throw it up, eat again, then shit it out..then having a herd of random cattle stampede over your shitted out heart.
Not even that summerizes how I felt. I don't think it can even come close. I couldn't go, everyone kept telling me to find a way but, I couldn't, I don't have money for buses or anything like that. I don't know people, my family didn't care, no one really cared. Other than my bestfriend from France but, there's only so much she can do since she's so far away. And my poor Kyo-chan and Miss Mikku, who had to hear me cry D: When I cry, it's not the prettiest of things, especially when I was crying my heart out. I thought I would be better by now but, I'm not. I'm not as broken but, I am super angry and pissed. How could anybody do that? Give us a heads up, not wait for the actual fucking day to say you're not taking us. I honestly don't think this is something i'm ever going to get over. Nothing ever goes right for me, even when I think I can have a moment, it gets fucking crushed. Now, what am I going to do with their tickets? What? This is shit..seriously. This should be written in a book or something, I think my life should be a book. Since it is, a huge fucking joke. I think God enjoys making my life a living hell. Umm...I don't know what else to say....
I can't even listen to them right now, when I do, I start crying like an idiot. Even when I try not to think about it, they just fucking come out. D: So, I think this is the longest i've gone without listening to them..YAY FOR RECORDS! I really don't think anyone understands how devasting this is. It would have been okay if I didn't already have the tickets but, I did. I'm never going to be this stupid ever again.
Soooooooooooo, as you may have already guessed, I did NOT go to the Houston show nor the Dallas one. Despite having bought my tickets, despite having been excited this whole month, despite this being the only thing I was looking forward to, despite everything, I wasn't able to go. Leila's friend (the one who would be driving us) backed out at the very last minute. I get the call from her saying we won't be going the night before the show. Now, imagine being given the greatest gift ever, something you've wanted more than anything, something that would possibly be the best thing ever to happen to you, having it ripped from your hands, stomped on, broken into a million pieces, having a tank run over it and you, reversed, then being exploded by land mines that were placed right under you, being blown to bits, then having a werewolf come out, eat your heart, throw it up, eat again, then shit it out..then having a herd of random cattle stampede over your shitted out heart.
Not even that summerizes how I felt. I don't think it can even come close. I couldn't go, everyone kept telling me to find a way but, I couldn't, I don't have money for buses or anything like that. I don't know people, my family didn't care, no one really cared. Other than my bestfriend from France but, there's only so much she can do since she's so far away. And my poor Kyo-chan and Miss Mikku, who had to hear me cry D: When I cry, it's not the prettiest of things, especially when I was crying my heart out. I thought I would be better by now but, I'm not. I'm not as broken but, I am super angry and pissed. How could anybody do that? Give us a heads up, not wait for the actual fucking day to say you're not taking us. I honestly don't think this is something i'm ever going to get over. Nothing ever goes right for me, even when I think I can have a moment, it gets fucking crushed. Now, what am I going to do with their tickets? What? This is shit..seriously. This should be written in a book or something, I think my life should be a book. Since it is, a huge fucking joke. I think God enjoys making my life a living hell. Umm...I don't know what else to say....
I can't even listen to them right now, when I do, I start crying like an idiot. Even when I try not to think about it, they just fucking come out. D: So, I think this is the longest i've gone without listening to them..YAY FOR RECORDS! I really don't think anyone understands how devasting this is. It would have been okay if I didn't already have the tickets but, I did. I'm never going to be this stupid ever again.