i need a glass of milk and a cookie
Everything in the world that could possibly go wrong has gone wrong. I realize that no one wants to hear about my angst, but damnit, I want to write about my angst.
My brother had to go to the hospital today because his blood pressure was too high. The chemo and incredible stress he endures for his job caused it. He works eleven hours most days, and only has one day off a week. He doesn't have to work this much, but he does anyway. He has to have a biopsy done Thursday because they found a spot on his lung after his last CT scan. They are also testing him for breathing problems because he's been suffering from shortness of breath. He's probably "toxic" from the chemo. Meaning they'll have to stop his treatment for a while to let the chemicals leave his body. I don't think I need to express the fact that I am upset over this.
I could tell you a million other things I'm upset about, but none of them are important when I think about that one. I just don't know what to do. About anything. Because of this I'm unable to concentrate. Funny, because I lack in that area anyway.
In general, I am very pissed off at everyone and everything right now. I don't like myself very much, and I am under the impression that no one else likes me very much either. Mainly because people I really care about seem to be hurting my feelings witout realizing it. I wish they'd stop. Or perhaps I should stop being such a damn baby. Ah just screw it. I'm only a little concerned that this pissed off-ness doesn't appear to be going away. I wanted to hit things two days ago, and I still want to hit things now.
My brother had to go to the hospital today because his blood pressure was too high. The chemo and incredible stress he endures for his job caused it. He works eleven hours most days, and only has one day off a week. He doesn't have to work this much, but he does anyway. He has to have a biopsy done Thursday because they found a spot on his lung after his last CT scan. They are also testing him for breathing problems because he's been suffering from shortness of breath. He's probably "toxic" from the chemo. Meaning they'll have to stop his treatment for a while to let the chemicals leave his body. I don't think I need to express the fact that I am upset over this.
I could tell you a million other things I'm upset about, but none of them are important when I think about that one. I just don't know what to do. About anything. Because of this I'm unable to concentrate. Funny, because I lack in that area anyway.
In general, I am very pissed off at everyone and everything right now. I don't like myself very much, and I am under the impression that no one else likes me very much either. Mainly because people I really care about seem to be hurting my feelings witout realizing it. I wish they'd stop. Or perhaps I should stop being such a damn baby. Ah just screw it. I'm only a little concerned that this pissed off-ness doesn't appear to be going away. I wanted to hit things two days ago, and I still want to hit things now.