the jealous girlfriend is so lame...
The first time in this relationship...this is my first experience of the whole 'jealous girlfriend' schtick or whatever you want to call it...i DON'T FUCKING LIKE THIS SHIT!!! i don't want to be the jealous girlfriend...this is totally stupid. But it's not Nate that i don't trust, it's those two fucking girls that he left with; they're always flirting with him and shit and them going to clubs together just seems kinda...i don't know... and not only did he go out of town with them, but he didn't fucking get back into town til 2:36p.m. today...okay, i'm stupid. But where did he and those girls sleep??? I totally shouldn't get jealous about this...but i'm just the stupid girlfriend-he's the type of guy that can get any girl he wants...he's the 'hot' one of this relationship LOL. i don't know, i'm just making a big deal out of nothing.
Okay...maybe i'm freaking out about this because i haven't went to sleep yet. I mean, no sleep can cause this kind of crankiness...i just can't help but be suspicious though...i mean, i've been cheated on by just about all of my ex boyfriends, so it's only natural to wonder...oh well, i'm not gonna let him know i feel this way because that'll only cause problems. I just felt like venting in this journal...there-i'm all done feeling like this. GOOD.
Okay...maybe i'm freaking out about this because i haven't went to sleep yet. I mean, no sleep can cause this kind of crankiness...i just can't help but be suspicious though...i mean, i've been cheated on by just about all of my ex boyfriends, so it's only natural to wonder...oh well, i'm not gonna let him know i feel this way because that'll only cause problems. I just felt like venting in this journal...there-i'm all done feeling like this. GOOD.