i will sing you lullabies...

[auroragoryalice]

i don't know what's with me anymore...anytime something halfway good happens, something else has to pull me back down and kick the shit out of me. i'm so confused, i went to the city with my mom yesterday and i ended up just spilling my guts to her...everything came out about things that have happened and how i've been affected by them and it took

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i'm sorry

[ephyouseekay_83]

after a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning. and company doesn't mean security. and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contacts. and presents aren't promises. and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open. with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. and learn to build all your roads today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. and futures have a way of falling down in mid flight. after a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. you learn that you really can endure. that you really are strong. and you really do have a worth. and you learn and you learn. with every goodbye-
you learn.

remember, things don't last sky... friends, come and go.. you have new and you have old. and you have the friends that don't even like you anymore. and if kevyn doesn't want to be your friend, then move on.

Re: i'm sorry

[auroragoryalice]

he just meant everything to me, closer than brothers...and maybe it will work out in the end, but right now, i feel like i'm totally alone.

This is what i get for trusting others...this is what i get for getting attached...this is what i get for loving someone too much...this is what i deserve.

Re: i'm sorry

[ephyouseekay_83]

it isn't what you deserve sky

you know if i still lived there, we'd be hangin out all the time. haha
oh btw i'm goin to okc sometime near the end of feb-begin of march.... you wanna come with me to visit bri? either that or dallas, i don't really care anymore. haha.

remember you pr0wn... thats technically porn, but yeah wtf ever. hahaha.

you know, you probably both just have your differences at the moment, i'm sure this won't last and you'll be hangin out again in no time