tired stinging red eyes...

[auroragoryalice]

this has been a long day...i don't want to talk all about it right now, because i'm kind of out of it; the codiene is taking affect and i might fuck it up...i've been so full of all of these emotions and they all came up when i saw my dad today. I've missed him so much. His trial was today and when i saw him come out of the elevator in his orange clothes all handcuffed with shackles on his ankles, i just couldn't hold it back any longer. i just lost it. This has been a horrible day...i just cried...and when i didn't have tears, i still felt like my heart was crying...just seeing my dad in that condition breaks my heart. I wanted to grab him and run; get out of that hell hole. He doesn't deserve it; he shouldn't be in there.

I don't know, i'm not thinking straight anymore and i don't even know how i'm even capable of typing anymore shit without having the brain to think it through before i type it, i'll just continue this tomorrow, i guess. I love my daddy more than anything...i just want him to be okay...that's ALL i want.