Apr 07, 2014 06:52
In each dream I have of him, he's getting older. But only numerically. He still has big bushy auburn hair and glasses. He's still in the body of a skinny adolescent. In this last dream, I was hanging out with him at his house while his parents were asleep. He was apparently no longer a virgin and wanted to have sex. I started to be intrigued but then we had to go out, cause his mom was waking up. So he, Jon Dear, and I went out. Matthew walked far ahead of us, and he was smoking. I remember telling Jon how weird that was.
Sometimes I think... if he had broken more rules and went ahead and actually had sex and smoked, he's still be alive, as fucked up as that seems.