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i missed the bus to get to this out of the way job interview, so I packed a bowl and turned on itunes instead cause I'm tired of this shit. I don't know if this is karma or not but I wish I knew what I could do to make it end. I got a seriously bruised ego this morning when I checked my e-mail. I've been applying for almost everything I've seen on
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I don't think you read the entry above at all. I think I painted Liz in a very natural and positive light. You act like I attacked her. You're absolutely right, it might not have been Liz who alerted my boss about the tweet. But I said I still understood how she might have felt angry about it. I would have felt the same way. The only thing that I said about Liz that might be construed as negative would be when I mentioned that I didn't like her training style. But being a good trainer comes with practice. She was simply inexperienced. However, I don't blame her for everyone else's attitudes towards me, and I never said that I did.
Again, I'm not sure you read this. I never said the office was warming up to me. I said the opposite. "However, the rest of the office did not seem to have warmed up to me yet, and mostly ignored me."
I learned one very hard, but very valuable lesson from this experience. Do not post anything on the internet that you don't want everyone to know about. I regret doing that, and I regret jumping to conclusions. First days are always awkward, and Liz just seemed less than enthused about having me sit by her all day. I didn't think she liked me from the start, and I should have just kept that to myself instead of being vocal on twitter. I don't know why she would resent me but she was not exactly friendly when we first met. She was cold and acted like she'd be happier if I wasn't there. I was the one trying to make conversation and break the ice.
You're right. Coming into that job I did have an entitlement problem. You see, I have been working in different jobs since I was 11 years old. I have worked, and worked HARD, for everything I have accomplished, including college, which I paid for myself. Mommy and Daddy didn't help me with one bit. In fact, growing up I often had to support them as well as myself. So coming from that sort of background, yes, I felt entitled to a job that was much better than scooping poop at 8.50 an hour. But it was a false sense of entitlement. No matter how hard I have worked in my life, I am not entitled to anything. I still have to compete against those who were given everything on a silver platter and have never scrubbed floors or pulled 80 hours a week.
I was actually very careful in this entry to not put all of the blame on Liz, because my lost job is not her fault. I made mistakes, which I admit to in this article. Also, I did not realize that I could get fired for forgetting to use a hyphen in a search box. No matter who told Herb about that, those are Herb's standards that he adheres too, not anyone else's. Liz could have used an attitude adjustment, but it was not her fault that I got fired. I don't directly blame her for any of that. No one lied about what I was or wasn't doing, and I never said they did. Obviously, it was just a bad place to work, period.
My theory about Liz wanting me gone after the tweet seemed to make sense at the time. Would you want to continue working with someone who talked shit about you online? Despite the promotion, I figured there was still resentment held against me.
I would like Liz and Herb to know what happened after I got fired. Let's see, I searched for jobs. We were living on my boyfriend's $12/hour. Our car got repossessed, so that made getting to interviews harder. I had an interview about once a week for awhile. Nothing stuck. Then, our landlords started threatening us with eviction, and finally succeeded in that, just as my boyfriend got promoted to a 50k a year position, haha. Then his father died. Then my mother was evicted and had to move to Florida with family. All of this happened while I was still unemployed. I did not get any unemployment pay. I got a few temp jobs here and there but nothing permanent. So hey guys, if you think that I deserved some karmic retribution for my time at Chapter 13, I think I've paid my debt. Soon, you'll pay yours too. At least now, I'm employed and I do a spectacular job, and things are started to get better now.
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