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i missed the bus to get to this out of the way job interview, so I packed a bowl and turned on itunes instead cause I'm tired of this shit. I don't know if this is karma or not but I wish I knew what I could do to make it end. I got a seriously bruised ego this morning when I checked my e-mail. I've been applying for almost everything I've seen on
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For starters, the grammatical errors and misspelled words are hilarious. But the prize of this whole piece is your attitude. It's amazing. Who are you? No seriously, who are YOU that you feel you are so entitled to everything in the world. Who are YOU that you think things should be handed to you without any effort. You said you think this girl resented having to train you...but why on earth would she resent you? She (sounds) beautiful, successful, wealthy, and educated. You sound lazy, resentful, and like a slob. She has a fantastic life, successful boyfriend, and a promotion...wouldn't she want to train you as fast as possible so she can move to her position and new office? There are so many flaws to your story I can't imagine anyone would take you seriously if you told this to them.
Do you have another job yet? I feel like you don't since you bitched about the location of the interview you missed and then decided to pack a bowl instead of trying to make it to the interview. You should read the news sometime. Not only will it give you an insight into the current state of the economy/job market, but you're also bound to come across the numerous, NUMEROUS articles out there that discuss the impact of social networking sites on job and school situations across the board. Every single article will advise you to be careful how much you put yourself out there because you never know who will find you and what they'll be able to see. Where's your proof that this girl was the one that found you? In an office of over 13 people, how do you know it was her? How do you know someone else didn't look you up and inform HER of the tweet? How do you know she told your boss? I hope you're not considering a future career in law because the court room will destroy you. The office never "warmed" up to you. Is that her fault or simply because you are unlikable? Her training doesn't seem so bad, but your refusal to try and learn from your notes to prepare yourself for the "hands on" portion is ridiculous. Did you do well at UVA? Did your boss tell you she told him about the hyphen? In this office of 13 where clearly everyone talks to each other, do you know for a fact that she brought that up to him? Why would someone being promoted sabotage the person filling their spot if all that does is give them more work and delay their promotion?
You need someone to blame for your own shortcomings. In all of these journal entries, this is the only one that got a real blog. You blame her for your failure at one job and inability to get another. You blame her because she's easy to hate. She's beautiful, talented, thin, successful, rich, smart, and well educated. In other words, everything you must not be. You can't do anything yourself, as is made very clear in your last sentence where you admit you hoped your boyfriend could take care of the two of you. What kind of woman are you? A disgrace to all of those fighting for job equality and to prove themselves just as capable, that's what kind. You think this girl tattled on you and lied about what you were doing to get you fired...even though she was getting promoted...you thought she was that petty. It seems, my dear, that you are the petty one. You are jealous and trifling. When you fail, rather than address the issues that led to your personal failure, you project onto others to make yourself seem less horrible. You are horrible for taking that attitude, and are doomed to fail as long as it continues.
Farewell and good luck, Lord knows you'll need it.
(but you know who won't? that girl. who will be more successful in her life than you could ever hope for)
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I don't think you read the entry above at all. I think I painted Liz in a very natural and positive light. You act like I attacked her. You're absolutely right, it might not have been Liz who alerted my boss about the tweet. But I said I still understood how she might have felt angry about it. I would have felt the same way. The only thing that I said about Liz that might be construed as negative would be when I mentioned that I didn't like her training style. But being a good trainer comes with practice. She was simply inexperienced. However, I don't blame her for everyone else's attitudes towards me, and I never said that I did.
Again, I'm not sure you read this. I never said the office was warming up to me. I said the opposite. "However, the rest of the office did not seem to have warmed up to me yet, and mostly ignored me."
I learned one very hard, but very valuable lesson from this experience. Do not post anything on the internet that you don't want everyone to know about. I regret doing that, and I regret jumping to conclusions. First days are always awkward, and Liz just seemed less than enthused about having me sit by her all day. I didn't think she liked me from the start, and I should have just kept that to myself instead of being vocal on twitter. I don't know why she would resent me but she was not exactly friendly when we first met. She was cold and acted like she'd be happier if I wasn't there. I was the one trying to make conversation and break the ice.
You're right. Coming into that job I did have an entitlement problem. You see, I have been working in different jobs since I was 11 years old. I have worked, and worked HARD, for everything I have accomplished, including college, which I paid for myself. Mommy and Daddy didn't help me with one bit. In fact, growing up I often had to support them as well as myself. So coming from that sort of background, yes, I felt entitled to a job that was much better than scooping poop at 8.50 an hour. But it was a false sense of entitlement. No matter how hard I have worked in my life, I am not entitled to anything. I still have to compete against those who were given everything on a silver platter and have never scrubbed floors or pulled 80 hours a week.
I was actually very careful in this entry to not put all of the blame on Liz, because my lost job is not her fault. I made mistakes, which I admit to in this article. Also, I did not realize that I could get fired for forgetting to use a hyphen in a search box. No matter who told Herb about that, those are Herb's standards that he adheres too, not anyone else's. Liz could have used an attitude adjustment, but it was not her fault that I got fired. I don't directly blame her for any of that. No one lied about what I was or wasn't doing, and I never said they did. Obviously, it was just a bad place to work, period.
My theory about Liz wanting me gone after the tweet seemed to make sense at the time. Would you want to continue working with someone who talked shit about you online? Despite the promotion, I figured there was still resentment held against me.
I would like Liz and Herb to know what happened after I got fired. Let's see, I searched for jobs. We were living on my boyfriend's $12/hour. Our car got repossessed, so that made getting to interviews harder. I had an interview about once a week for awhile. Nothing stuck. Then, our landlords started threatening us with eviction, and finally succeeded in that, just as my boyfriend got promoted to a 50k a year position, haha. Then his father died. Then my mother was evicted and had to move to Florida with family. All of this happened while I was still unemployed. I did not get any unemployment pay. I got a few temp jobs here and there but nothing permanent. So hey guys, if you think that I deserved some karmic retribution for my time at Chapter 13, I think I've paid my debt. Soon, you'll pay yours too. At least now, I'm employed and I do a spectacular job, and things are started to get better now.
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