some post i had private that is now unprivate for the sake of irony
I am so overwhelmed right now. I need to learn so much, yet he has given me his ring and told me he would marry me when I am ready. He told me he would love me forever, no matter the things I have done. I am so protective already, which is unusual for me. I wish he would see how wonderful he is. I don't understand his low self image at all, I feel like screaming, look at yourself. Maybe that's how people have felt when I get down on myself, or maybe we were just drunk. Blind faith making me a ready fool yet I give in, I want to be his selkie, and I want him to steal my seal coat and bury it deep under the ground forever. We don't even know eachother and we shake our heads in disbelief. Maybe, maybe....maybe....if what he says is true, maybe every thing up until this point has happened for this reason, for us to finally meet. I was so Jadded and hurt and threw the towel in. I haven't been this terrified of another person and yet have such tender feelings in such a long time. We are both troubled with our pasts, but feel so intensely and sweetly towards each other. I already want to kill her for making him for using him and riddling him with unnecessary insecurities.