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I swear I get one more script error and grrr...>.> I never realized how spoiled I was with my cabel internet until now. I'm not at my house at the moment and am stuck on dail up. ._. yahoo doesn't agree with AOHell at all. I can login..I just can't SEND any e-mail. However I need something to go home with me and I can't send so..I'm using my lj. XD
It's just another fic~ I'll put the tags on later, when I get home.
Waking Up
Sometimes the worst pain can be caused without ever laying a single hand on another. It has nothing to do with physical touch at all. A single thought can bring the worst kind of agony. Knuckles knew this all too well.
The echidna was alone once more on the island, the silence was almost unsettling. His mind wandered over the thought of Shadow and the situation they were now in. He had not to think about really. It was something he couldn’t explain, something that brought pure confusion. However, it seemed as though his thoughts refused to be held back any longer. Unbidden they pushed to the front of his mind and with those thoughts painful turmoil came as well.
Was he just a passing fancy for the black hedgehog? Could he really just be someone who was simply there when Shadow needed him, someone who just helped him forget the memories, or lack of, if only for a short time? Although to be fair, Knuckles had easily given into the harsh kisses and sensational feelings as easily as Shadow had supplied them. During these times he wasn’t reminded of his duties, he could actually almost forget that he had willingly allowed the hedgehog to pass through boundaries that were never meant to be passed in the first place. In fact, those boundaries didn’t even exist. He could forget the pressure of the knowledge that he alone could naturally control the Master Emerald and unify the chaos. It was purely a physical thing, there were no strings attached. Or rather, that was how it was supposed to be. Knuckles sighed, he hadn’t thought in a million years he would be in a situation like this.
The whole thing went against his dignity. It needed to be put to a stop before it interfered with his duties. Those were the thoughts running through the Guardian’s head. He knew what needed to be done, knew that he should probably be ashamed of the actions he has already done. It was true that he was torn inside but not for those reasons. It should have been the easiest choice he could make and in turn do. However Knuckles knew it wasn’t going to be that simple.
It was down right impossible.
Knuckles didn’t know why, he just knew he was in capable of putting a stop to any of this. He didn’t want to. He couldn’t explain himself nor could he come up with a valid reason for him to stop. That thought alone nearly scared the almost fearless echidna. Knuckles frowned and tried to push away the pain that he was for some reason feeling from the lack of answers. He didn’t understand any of it. Why had he allowed this to happen and to continue? From the very beginning he had been a willing participant though the reason for it all had yet to appear. He hadn’t expected for all the conflicted emotions to assault him either though.
Knuckles briefly wandered if maybe the same thoughts had come across Shadow’s mind as well. He tried to figure why the black hedgehog could easily invade his thoughts. It wasn’t like this with the others. Even in the early days of meeting Sonic; the blue hedgehog hadn’t gotten to him like Shadow did. It made Knuckles uneasy to realize just how distraught his own feelings were making him. He normally had a better grip on himself. The echidna hadn’t, couldn’t, have known that another person could make him be like this.
Why was he even putting himself through all this? Why couldn’t he make himself put a stop to this madness? It should have been a simple action. After all, he had made an art out of keeping others at a distance. Why wasn’t it the same with Shadow? He didn’t need this chaos, not now, not ever. However, he knew deep down that he truly wanted this.
Knuckles knew that this went beyond physical attraction. He knew that there was something else, some sort of feeling that made him want to stay with Shadow. It made him want more.
More of what, however, Knuckles didn’t know. At least, not yet.
O.o hope the tags worked rofl..if not, forgive me for clogging up your FLs.
It's just another fic~ I'll put the tags on later, when I get home.
Waking Up
Sometimes the worst pain can be caused without ever laying a single hand on another. It has nothing to do with physical touch at all. A single thought can bring the worst kind of agony. Knuckles knew this all too well.
The echidna was alone once more on the island, the silence was almost unsettling. His mind wandered over the thought of Shadow and the situation they were now in. He had not to think about really. It was something he couldn’t explain, something that brought pure confusion. However, it seemed as though his thoughts refused to be held back any longer. Unbidden they pushed to the front of his mind and with those thoughts painful turmoil came as well.
Was he just a passing fancy for the black hedgehog? Could he really just be someone who was simply there when Shadow needed him, someone who just helped him forget the memories, or lack of, if only for a short time? Although to be fair, Knuckles had easily given into the harsh kisses and sensational feelings as easily as Shadow had supplied them. During these times he wasn’t reminded of his duties, he could actually almost forget that he had willingly allowed the hedgehog to pass through boundaries that were never meant to be passed in the first place. In fact, those boundaries didn’t even exist. He could forget the pressure of the knowledge that he alone could naturally control the Master Emerald and unify the chaos. It was purely a physical thing, there were no strings attached. Or rather, that was how it was supposed to be. Knuckles sighed, he hadn’t thought in a million years he would be in a situation like this.
The whole thing went against his dignity. It needed to be put to a stop before it interfered with his duties. Those were the thoughts running through the Guardian’s head. He knew what needed to be done, knew that he should probably be ashamed of the actions he has already done. It was true that he was torn inside but not for those reasons. It should have been the easiest choice he could make and in turn do. However Knuckles knew it wasn’t going to be that simple.
It was down right impossible.
Knuckles didn’t know why, he just knew he was in capable of putting a stop to any of this. He didn’t want to. He couldn’t explain himself nor could he come up with a valid reason for him to stop. That thought alone nearly scared the almost fearless echidna. Knuckles frowned and tried to push away the pain that he was for some reason feeling from the lack of answers. He didn’t understand any of it. Why had he allowed this to happen and to continue? From the very beginning he had been a willing participant though the reason for it all had yet to appear. He hadn’t expected for all the conflicted emotions to assault him either though.
Knuckles briefly wandered if maybe the same thoughts had come across Shadow’s mind as well. He tried to figure why the black hedgehog could easily invade his thoughts. It wasn’t like this with the others. Even in the early days of meeting Sonic; the blue hedgehog hadn’t gotten to him like Shadow did. It made Knuckles uneasy to realize just how distraught his own feelings were making him. He normally had a better grip on himself. The echidna hadn’t, couldn’t, have known that another person could make him be like this.
Why was he even putting himself through all this? Why couldn’t he make himself put a stop to this madness? It should have been a simple action. After all, he had made an art out of keeping others at a distance. Why wasn’t it the same with Shadow? He didn’t need this chaos, not now, not ever. However, he knew deep down that he truly wanted this.
Knuckles knew that this went beyond physical attraction. He knew that there was something else, some sort of feeling that made him want to stay with Shadow. It made him want more.
More of what, however, Knuckles didn’t know. At least, not yet.
O.o hope the tags worked rofl..if not, forgive me for clogging up your FLs.