runing off the day
i'm ansy. my imagination is trying to step forward with out me begining to worry over tomorrows to do list. i need to let lose. maybe race someone or fight with my padded swords. i'm sorta running back and forth in my room right now. i wish i understoud why i occationally need to "tick". ricki seems to think its a promblem i should get help with but i feel its just a stress coping mecanism and i've done it ever since i can remember, its just that now i keep it very private. this usually isn't a problem, however with moving in with room mates i have been thinking about it more and more. i'll probably just do it at my moms on school days in the city so no worries. i guess my past (and sometimes present) social woes stem from my rocking and ticking which are hard to hide so i'm always reminded of my differences because they're right there for every one to see. in high school i was threatened occationally because it bothered people. i can't help it, really! damn it i feel bad bitching like this, i guess i'm just feeling worn pretty thin. its just new situation stress, i know it will pass. but i also know its got to be let out some way. tomorrow consists of studying alittle more, sorting more things, moving more things, droping off more apps and calling some places back. any one who wants to stop by if they see my silver suv out in front of the new place, is more than welcome to, i'd more than welcome the company. oh and it looks as though micheal can't fix my comp so if anyone would like to try your welcome to, if not, looks like i'll need to save some money to buy a new one, *sigh*. my most positive thought at the moment is (count with me people!!!!) THREE MORE DAYS TO KITTY KISSES!!!!!!! may you all bathe in your own personal hot spring. love and harmony, sprite.