Grounded and FREAKING OUT
Being grounded sucks. But you know what sucks even more? Having a shitload of work that I have to get done all for next week. I have a Caesar paper for English, a Spanish Bio, a Chem test, and a Math test. I'm like freaking out and about to crack from the stress and lack of a certain something. I need some or else I won't be able to get anything done. I was home all day and yet I didn't get a single fucking peice of homework done, I'm fucking freaking out. I need to get this shit done like NOW. I need my stuff, I need it like woh...i have gone so long w/o it but now I just can't handle things w/o it. FUCKING A! I'm not gonna let this happen to me again, I'm not gonna get addicted again. I just gotta fight it, just gotta fight the urge and push myself to do the work...WHy the fuck do I feel like I'm freaking out. It's not the fucking end of the world, jesus...what have I let my parents force me into becoming. Why do their standards have to be so high? I'm fucking grounded cause of my grade in chem, you know how stupid that is? Bloody fucking hell this suitation makes me mad. I need to just calm down and get some work done. I know I'll just dig myself in deeper either way I go...I have seen what happens when you become too hooked, and I know I don't want to end up that way. But I feel like I am stuck in a repeating circle...