I'm upset...

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I hate becoming attached to people, it makes loosing them so much harder. Which is what is now happening. FUCK! I feel so upset... Why the fuck does this have to happen? Why does he have to go back to France! I feel like I'm losing everyone, I could seriously start crying right now. Earlier today I wanted time to move faster and now I want it to compleatly slow down, maybe even stop. W/ everyone gone after next year and a bunch this year I honestly don't know how I will make it. Rachel was right, I knew something bad would come out of this past wonderful weekend & week. And now I feel crushed and weak and hopeless and unlucky and...etc...
>SCREAMS<
AUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
>SCREAMS MORE<
AUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
>SCREAMS AGAIN<
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay I'm done. I'm a stronger person than this shit, fuck that. I'll make do w/ the time and the memories that I have. Though everytime we are together the thought of him leaving will linger in my mind...FUCK........ :tear:

"just try and spend as much time as u can being happy"- Fede

heatbroken love to all...
and then some...