update
I haven't been updating as much as I usually do. I posted a couple crappy empty posts, but nothing of substance. I haven't really been able to put things into words lately. I'll give it a try.
I am reevaluating a few things in my life and trying to decide what to do after that. I suppose more communication is necessary, which admittedly, is not my strong point. I could just go with the flow and change nothing, hoping for the best. I'm more of a fixer though. I like to be able to put things in boxes neatly in my mind and when I can't it makes me uncomfortable. I'm torn between what I want and what I want.
I also don't want to look like a giant asshole. I mean, I can be at times, but this is one of those times when I really wasn't being one. I was doing the best I could do.
The other thing is that this is not about me, really. I can't force other people to box things up when they simply can't.
I suppose that if there were no challenges there would be no victory, but just once, when I think I have everything figured out, I'd like to come to the right conclusion.
I am reevaluating a few things in my life and trying to decide what to do after that. I suppose more communication is necessary, which admittedly, is not my strong point. I could just go with the flow and change nothing, hoping for the best. I'm more of a fixer though. I like to be able to put things in boxes neatly in my mind and when I can't it makes me uncomfortable. I'm torn between what I want and what I want.
I also don't want to look like a giant asshole. I mean, I can be at times, but this is one of those times when I really wasn't being one. I was doing the best I could do.
The other thing is that this is not about me, really. I can't force other people to box things up when they simply can't.
I suppose that if there were no challenges there would be no victory, but just once, when I think I have everything figured out, I'd like to come to the right conclusion.