My turn
Ok..I called in today. I feel like crap. I am SO fuckin tired! I feel like crap and I hate everyone. I am so tired of feeling like I'm here to entertain people and nothing more. I'm NOT entertaining!!! I'm a BITCH!!!! Plain and simple. People aren't supposed to like me. I'm ugly and not so smart. I just want to disappear. I feel bad saying this but, I don't trust Doug anymore. Not that I think he is doing anything, I just doubt his sincerity toward me. I don't know, it's probably just me. I just hate being looked at as if I'm part of the background. I talk to people and realize, I"M NOT UGLY. But, i still feel like I am. I have no idea why that has any relevance, I'm more than just what I look like. I had become accustomed to people being attracted to me. Now, it seems that it has become way too much of an issue because he isn't interested. There isn't anything I can do about it either. So why should I fuckin bother? How about I just get WAy fat and not bathe nor fix my hair. At least I won't have to bother with that stuff anymore. How about I commit an act of violence on myself? Then maybe I will get some fuckin ATTENTION?! NAH, I still care too much about myself. Plus, that is WAY overkill. I don't know, I think it's mostly me being tired of compromising myself and not getting anything in return. I know that isn't why you compromise but, honestly I'm just fucking tired. I just want to go home to my parents house and go lie down on my mom's bed and cry myself to sleep. Apparently, I am annoying sometimes.... Well, FUCK OFF YOU STUPID SON'S-OF-BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!! I really don't need anything from any-fuckin-one. I'm so fuckin tired of superficail conversations and friendships. I'm tired of feeling like it is my job to make people feel better about themselves. You all really are stupid, useless, pieces of SHIT. Too bad it has taken this fuckin long for me to realize that it isn't my fuckin job to make YOU feel better. Especially when I am constantly put down by those same people. YES, all the bad things YOU think about yourself are true. I was just trying to be nice. Why don't you just fuckin' DIE. Maybe then you will do SOME good by dying and and not bothering others. GOD, why am I so fuckin bitter. I am not going to make this a private entry. Mostly, because if this isn't said in an open forum, it's like it wasn't said at all. So in a nut shell....FUCK ALL OF YOU!!!! Thank you very much for listening to my whiny bitch session.