Apr 03, 2005 21:53
WoW! So much has happened in the span of 2 days. First off, I went to Kayla's house. It's such a cute house, plus it's old and has a lot of character. I've always loved old houses, like fixer-upper types. So we talked about soooooo much stuff and caught up on everything that has been going on lately. She mostly talked about Allan and how they are "starting over". I'm so happy for her though because they love each other so much and yet, they're still trying to try new things while still keeping a relationship. I just hope everything works out with them. For goodness sakes, they have liked each other for 3 years!
Anyways, then Kayla and I played PS2 games like DDR, Karaoke revolution and SSX tricky. I suck at SSX tricky, but I'm ok with the rest. Oh yeah, and we played tetris too.
After that, we literally talked for about 3 hours about guys, penises (and how much we like them and how wierd they are), how some people aren't trustworty and other stuff. She is so easy to talk to and I feel like I can tell her anything. I love you Kayla! Then we popped in The Princess Bride and watched Wesley and the spaniard with their tight pants!!! FUN FUN! We fell asleep at 4, to be accurate and woke up at 1 this afternoon. Then we ate waffles and Apple Jacks. Good times, good times.
It was odd because Matt called me while I was at Kaylas to see if I could come over, but I couldn't because I wanted to spend time with my dad. He also called Saturday to see how my spring break went and I thought that was really sweet. Kayla personally thought that he wanted me back. She said that he probably didn't know what he had until he lost it... odd enough, she was right.
After some thinking, I called Matt tonight and we talked and stuff. Basically I said that if I were to give him another chance, that he would have to change for me... He said he would. It's just hard for me to trust people I guess and it's hard for me to trust people's word because of some past experiences. So we are going to try to start over. I honestly don't know if I'm making the biggest mistake of my life or if I'm doing the right thing. I'm so confused. Kayla would make me feel better... or any of my friends for that matter. I'm scared of how tough tings are going to be this time around, after past experiences. What am I supposed to do?
Well I hope some things will be cleared up when we can talk in person tomorrow. I'm actually looking forward to school tomorrow... is that wierd?