Tough Stuff
Well, my boyfriend broke up w/me yesterday. As much as I'd like to think it was mutual, it really didn't feel like it. I wasn't ready to break up but you know things happen. The only reason I guess that it seemed mutual at the time was because I was trying to convince myself that I'd be better off without him. Now that it's all said and done, I just feel like crap.
Don't you wish love was easy? Sometimes things are not meant to be even though I wish they were. You think you love someone while you're in high school but it's virtually impossible. All the stressors of school plus a boyfriend don't go together well. Love means you never have second thoughts or have the slightest doubt of someones faithfulness and trust.
In the real world, can you really be friends after a relationship? Possibly but as much as I've gone through it seems as if it's not probable. I'll just pray that it is. I'm still very much attatched but somehow I will learn to move on. I would love to be friends with my ex and I really hope it works out with my whole jealousy issue.
My worst fear was confirmed when I found there was someone other than me he was interested in. It feels almost like cheating but not.... I can't explain. The funny thing is I remember saying to myself 'how can you know everything about a person? There's always that shadow of doubt that never goes away. It makes you think that something below the surface is untruthful.' I was right.
I've also been lied to which is extremely annoying. This is like my worst pet peeve next to talking behind my back. Love Sucks.
Girls out there who've ever been in my shoes or worse, I can't say how bad it is. Have faith in that everything will be ok. When you least expect it, something better will come along despite how good the previous relationship was. If you ever get back with an ex, know that you may get hurt again, and the second time around will be worse. Lastly, be courageous and be strong. You don't have to put up with crap like this.
To all my friends out there who have been so supportive and there to pick me up off my feet, I really do appreciate you. Thank you so much. It is a rarity to find people that care so much about me... I love you all.
Don't you wish love was easy? Sometimes things are not meant to be even though I wish they were. You think you love someone while you're in high school but it's virtually impossible. All the stressors of school plus a boyfriend don't go together well. Love means you never have second thoughts or have the slightest doubt of someones faithfulness and trust.
In the real world, can you really be friends after a relationship? Possibly but as much as I've gone through it seems as if it's not probable. I'll just pray that it is. I'm still very much attatched but somehow I will learn to move on. I would love to be friends with my ex and I really hope it works out with my whole jealousy issue.
My worst fear was confirmed when I found there was someone other than me he was interested in. It feels almost like cheating but not.... I can't explain. The funny thing is I remember saying to myself 'how can you know everything about a person? There's always that shadow of doubt that never goes away. It makes you think that something below the surface is untruthful.' I was right.
I've also been lied to which is extremely annoying. This is like my worst pet peeve next to talking behind my back. Love Sucks.
Girls out there who've ever been in my shoes or worse, I can't say how bad it is. Have faith in that everything will be ok. When you least expect it, something better will come along despite how good the previous relationship was. If you ever get back with an ex, know that you may get hurt again, and the second time around will be worse. Lastly, be courageous and be strong. You don't have to put up with crap like this.
To all my friends out there who have been so supportive and there to pick me up off my feet, I really do appreciate you. Thank you so much. It is a rarity to find people that care so much about me... I love you all.