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I am SO BORED in this place. I am always on this campus on weekends. There is absolutely no one here this time either. Everyone went home for Easter Sunday. Tom and I get to leave tomorrow since we had to work the desk. Ugh. I envy people who are out in the world. I would rather be anywhere but here. It's not the normal type of boredom where you just want something to do to keep you occupied. It's the kind of feeling you get when you can no longer sit still, keep quiet about something, or sleep through the night. I took a room in Towers hoping my window would face out into Framingham, so I could see the highway, the Natick Mall, restaurants and pedestrians. I got a window that overlooks the campus that I tread each and every day. I sit in all the same seats in all the same buildings with the same people and I always wonder if this is what life was meant to be like. Are we really meant to settle in one place and be content to stay forever? Maybe so, if that's the kind of place you would never want to leave. I chose this place by chance and I can honestly say I'll never leave anything to chance again. I await the day when I can pack all my things and move back home. I'll go to a different school and be with more people who might understand me better. Then I'll pack my bags again and head for Asia. I'll live a simple kind of life for two years in the Peace Corps. I won't have much, but the scenery will be breathtaking. I'll be able to get closer to my religion and meet people who do not operate under a materialistic society. I'll bribe postmen, boil my drinking water, walk to temple so I can meditate beside the pensive buddhas. It might get tiring after awhile, but I will have chosen to be there and I will leave eventually. Then I'll come home and everything will be new again. After awhile, I might need to pack and leave again. Maybe for Europe. Maybe I'll backpack across the borders and learn a skill to sell on the way. I'm not afraid of death. I just want to have lived when the time comes to cease my existance.