happy fucking whatever

[auraphish]

well today was the shittiest day in my life...i had my family all over and to make matters worse i was working today, i had a breakdown....i left telling them to call me if I still had a job. i realized that the only reason i even cared about my job was that i thought my grandma would have been proud that i kept such a steady job.... tonite i finally mourned my grandma who has been dead for almost a year.....crying and all, i may have to call chris and tell him i wont be able to go to vegas..then again maybe the time away is what i need......im lost, hurt, and for once....i dont want help.

i have found my unhappy place