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Feel bad, Feel happy.....I wish i could make up my mind.....Go out, stay here i dont want to do either anymore. it just doesn't make any sense...I KNOW what i want, i know i can just reach out and grasp for it but i don't... is it fear? i know i want it but am i willing to try again and again no matter how much it hurts...no im not. the one type of pain that burns me truely is defeat, no matter what i do i fear defeat, even meaningless defeats bother me, plague me daily and i do nothing.....its time i stopped brooding and waiting for what i want....i will reach out for my desires....or not. maybe i can wait just a little longer?