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sometimes i feel like there's something missing in my life. lately i've been wondering if that something is religion. some level of belief. i've always believed in SOMETHING, just not religion per se. maybe it's because the religion that i was raised closest to is so incredibly stifling and are more of a mob than a spiritual group. maybe if i found something that didn't make me want to crawl out of my skin would do me some good. the only church that looked semi-attractive is unitarians. but i can't help to feel like it's a little ridiculous. how do you worship something without stating what you're worshiping? it confuses me. on some level, i appreciate orthodoxy. it has a very long history and it has something (relatively) concrete that it believes. but i do like the unitarian church because it feels open and welcoming and because it sounds like they actually question religion and learn from that. i like that.
i also really liked the 1 reformed jewish service i went to years ago. but if i attended any form of jewish service my great grandmother would roll over in her grave...and it may just send my grandmother TO the grave. although i can't quite imagine that she'd be terribly happy with a lot of the choices i've already made.
i kinda wish i'd taken holly up on the offer to go with her to church when i had the opportunity. oh well.
i also really liked the 1 reformed jewish service i went to years ago. but if i attended any form of jewish service my great grandmother would roll over in her grave...and it may just send my grandmother TO the grave. although i can't quite imagine that she'd be terribly happy with a lot of the choices i've already made.
i kinda wish i'd taken holly up on the offer to go with her to church when i had the opportunity. oh well.