le siiiiiigh
why do i never feel like doing my schoolwork, but then the thought of not being in school and/or messing it up absolutely scares me...yet i still dont do what i need to do. finals week is here and i find myself screwed and in a very precarious situation. i dont know what the problem is, oh wait yes i do, its the same thing that is making me feel like a shitty being, but i dont know, well now i am confused and i am sure you are too. depressed. yes. being swallowed up by problems will only lead to be swallowed completely into darkness. and i am seeing very little of the light these days. i feel like i put on a happy disposition for everyone, they dont realize the intricate web of deceit and fake happiness that i have woven, because i am not 'supposed' to be feeling this way, they realize whats going on inside of me. fuck fuck shit fuck
[something here is wrong].
[something here is wrong].