Beneath
School. Beginning. What time does the bus come again?
01: Calculus. Was the last person in class; got a seat right in the front. I...I...oh my gosh, what the heck am I doing in there? We went right off the bat with velocities and tangents and then teacher was like, "Oh yes, and derivatives, of course," and - derivatives? What the...what is that even...tangents? Limits? I didn't even bring any looseleaf paper, or calculator - I was so woefully unprepared, and everyone around me was so smart, and ripe from a year of pre-Calc and whatever else. I was already spacing out and freaking out about not understanding anything. I just need to calm down.
02: Government & Comparative Politics. This went better; Robert sits right next to me, so we can be backpack buddies again, whee. Plus Satoushi-san sits near me also. The only problem is, though I did read the summerwork assignment, I did sort of...not read it completely...and so only got 13/20something on the test. Ashamed.
03: Literature and Composition. This would have probably gone better if I had realized - and assimilated into my mind - the fact that I had another assignment besides reading Beneath the Wheel. Like, the vocab assignment that everyone - everyone - had in their hands, except me. (Ashamed...) I think I did okay on the test though. And had some time to work on the Llyr/Grae roleplay version Notebook.
04: Physics. There is no one that I know in this class. I really hope that I can change it to StudioArt...but the fact that Japanese is only offered during fifth period...makes me nervous. I think that might just be the single most stressful part about starting school.
Lunch. Hung out with Jon wondering why people weren't in this lunch. Also met Jenny. And another girl named Melissa.
05: Japanese. Shocked me out of my seat when I realized that De was in this class. It's split between fourth year and AP, the latter of which there is only about five members, whose undedication to two afterschool meetings per week seemed to sadden sensei. But...what can I do about it? I'm getting apphrehensive now. How am I supposed to balance all these classes - what was I thinking? Showed De the locker that I'm sharing with Elisu also, and saw that my shelf - my poor lime green shelf - had fallen in again. I think it's just permanently broken, and the lack of any shelf in our locker is not going to bode well.
06: Jewelrymaking. Filled with a lot of people who don't particularly want to be here...and, of course, the inevitable "These are the elements of art - read this poster, re-explain them to the class." Art theory..." Find pictures that display three artistic elements and bring them to class tomorrow..." It feels so pointless; it makes me ill and more tired than I should be at the end of the day. Chelsey is already going to try and switch out. I don't know where I'm going to get three pictures. Maybe a magazine. Already the teacher said, "Is there any other art that you guys do? Such as...sketching, just with pencils...or painting, of course..."
Of course. Of course no one would mention CG or anything like that - CG isn't art! CG is just art created by the MINDLESS FUNCTIONS of a computer. My gosh. You can create what is supposedly a masterpiece in like FIVE SECONDS with Photoshop, of course. An average of seven hours? No way.
Of course.
...I'm not really bitter. I guess I'm still sort of excited, despite the fact that De is right, something I'm only comfortable about saying because I know he'll never read it here - the novelty wears and it's just like it always was, and there's nothing to be missed about it later.
Except I probably still will.
01: Calculus. Was the last person in class; got a seat right in the front. I...I...oh my gosh, what the heck am I doing in there? We went right off the bat with velocities and tangents and then teacher was like, "Oh yes, and derivatives, of course," and - derivatives? What the...what is that even...tangents? Limits? I didn't even bring any looseleaf paper, or calculator - I was so woefully unprepared, and everyone around me was so smart, and ripe from a year of pre-Calc and whatever else. I was already spacing out and freaking out about not understanding anything. I just need to calm down.
02: Government & Comparative Politics. This went better; Robert sits right next to me, so we can be backpack buddies again, whee. Plus Satoushi-san sits near me also. The only problem is, though I did read the summerwork assignment, I did sort of...not read it completely...and so only got 13/20something on the test. Ashamed.
03: Literature and Composition. This would have probably gone better if I had realized - and assimilated into my mind - the fact that I had another assignment besides reading Beneath the Wheel. Like, the vocab assignment that everyone - everyone - had in their hands, except me. (Ashamed...) I think I did okay on the test though. And had some time to work on the Llyr/Grae roleplay version Notebook.
04: Physics. There is no one that I know in this class. I really hope that I can change it to StudioArt...but the fact that Japanese is only offered during fifth period...makes me nervous. I think that might just be the single most stressful part about starting school.
Lunch. Hung out with Jon wondering why people weren't in this lunch. Also met Jenny. And another girl named Melissa.
05: Japanese. Shocked me out of my seat when I realized that De was in this class. It's split between fourth year and AP, the latter of which there is only about five members, whose undedication to two afterschool meetings per week seemed to sadden sensei. But...what can I do about it? I'm getting apphrehensive now. How am I supposed to balance all these classes - what was I thinking? Showed De the locker that I'm sharing with Elisu also, and saw that my shelf - my poor lime green shelf - had fallen in again. I think it's just permanently broken, and the lack of any shelf in our locker is not going to bode well.
06: Jewelrymaking. Filled with a lot of people who don't particularly want to be here...and, of course, the inevitable "These are the elements of art - read this poster, re-explain them to the class." Art theory..." Find pictures that display three artistic elements and bring them to class tomorrow..." It feels so pointless; it makes me ill and more tired than I should be at the end of the day. Chelsey is already going to try and switch out. I don't know where I'm going to get three pictures. Maybe a magazine. Already the teacher said, "Is there any other art that you guys do? Such as...sketching, just with pencils...or painting, of course..."
Of course. Of course no one would mention CG or anything like that - CG isn't art! CG is just art created by the MINDLESS FUNCTIONS of a computer. My gosh. You can create what is supposedly a masterpiece in like FIVE SECONDS with Photoshop, of course. An average of seven hours? No way.
Of course.
...I'm not really bitter. I guess I'm still sort of excited, despite the fact that De is right, something I'm only comfortable about saying because I know he'll never read it here - the novelty wears and it's just like it always was, and there's nothing to be missed about it later.
Except I probably still will.