I feel dumb posting again
right after i just posted, but i can't sleep. that's not even true. i could sleep, if i tried. it's late and i must sleep, but i can't decide if i want to take drugs or if i want to turn on the humidifier, and i'm getting all anxious, and it's weird to be able to have fast internet in my room, because i usually can't get ANY internet, and i want to watch more dawson but i know that if i don't sleep soon i won't sleep at all and i need the sleep.
i want to hang with sarah tomorrow, but i sort of want to be done with the socializing and just be by myself tomorrow or something. i don't know. with sarah, i know i can chill and not have to talk a lot, but i know i will want to because i haven't seen her in years.
and i'm sort of freaky outy and i wish joe were here to hug me and say it's ok. i also wish i had pants to wear. you see, i don't want to make a pair of pants dirty before i go back on sunday, and i have washed everything already. so, i have a lot of shirts to wear but no pants. that fit me. because i, my friends, am fat. it's true. all that 'healthy' eating i thought i could do in college failed MISERABLY and i gained the freshman more-than-fifteen because i am afraid to weigh myself.
i'm jittery and depressed and sad and cry-y and TIRED and i want to do so much and i don't know why i didn't do it sooner.
also my back hurts because i have been sitting slash laying weirdly because i have been watching dvds on my compy. whom i love. dearly. also, she is not allowing me to video chat right now, and it's a bummer. also, my hair is cute.
it's sad and pathetic that i sort of wish i had the type of teen angst so prevalent in the Creek.
i want to hang with sarah tomorrow, but i sort of want to be done with the socializing and just be by myself tomorrow or something. i don't know. with sarah, i know i can chill and not have to talk a lot, but i know i will want to because i haven't seen her in years.
and i'm sort of freaky outy and i wish joe were here to hug me and say it's ok. i also wish i had pants to wear. you see, i don't want to make a pair of pants dirty before i go back on sunday, and i have washed everything already. so, i have a lot of shirts to wear but no pants. that fit me. because i, my friends, am fat. it's true. all that 'healthy' eating i thought i could do in college failed MISERABLY and i gained the freshman more-than-fifteen because i am afraid to weigh myself.
i'm jittery and depressed and sad and cry-y and TIRED and i want to do so much and i don't know why i didn't do it sooner.
also my back hurts because i have been sitting slash laying weirdly because i have been watching dvds on my compy. whom i love. dearly. also, she is not allowing me to video chat right now, and it's a bummer. also, my hair is cute.
it's sad and pathetic that i sort of wish i had the type of teen angst so prevalent in the Creek.