i'm un-sober
ahh... cheap vodka. itsn't it amazing how when you hang out with your RA for an hour you feel sober, then you when leave the authority figure and let yourself revel in the powers of intoxication, you feel them full-fledged? oi... katie and bobby went downstairs to visit david, so i'm all alone updating on drew's computer but i like it.
ok, so i came to this realization:
having vertigo includes all the symptoms of intoxication without any of the bonuses. all the horrible dizzy, nauseated, unable-to-concentrate symptoms. SO
i should just get drunk. and then when i'm dizzy, i'll like it. and then when my mind spins, i'll appreciate it. i thought on wednesday "fuck, i have vertigo again: i can't have any fun this weekend before my fucking 12-hr tech."
WRONG. i can have fun, because that keeps my vertigo symptoms and adds the symptom of having fun. score. we drank cheap vodka, and now i'm sitting in bobby, grant, and drew's room alone. but i'm not tempted to valiate against the scores of homework, i have, against the professors i need to impress to continue doing work with them. instead, i can revel in the drunkenness.
wow, this is taking me ages to write this post because FUCK back vodka makes you drunk. but oh my the lack of cognizant awareness and rational thought is ENJOYABLE when you CHOSE it, rather than when you just have vertigo. fuck my 12-hr tech tomorrow.
wow, did you know it took me like 9 times to spell "continue" correctly? oi... i had such great type-writing skills before this. moral life lesson: LOOSEN UP, MAURA!!!
does that ever amaze anyone, when you see my name and you realize it has a "U" in it? how many names have "u"'s in it? fuck. ok, i'm drunk. and i LOVE it.
why bother being sober when your conscious state isn't fully intact because you fucking suffer from vertigo and can't see or balance or process material correctly? answer: no value to being sober.
i haven't been drunk in like a month because i was afraid of the exacerbations vertigo would impose upon drunken states and/or vertigo. but i realized: fuck that. vertigo is drunkenness without happiness. thus, be drunk. lose your balance, concentration, feeling. do it willingly, under the guise of non-soberness, and it will make you happy. maybe i should take those fucking pills for vertigo that don't help but they tell me not to take them during drunkenness. that would be fun.
i really like our RA and it's weird that i felt totally sober when i was talking to her for an hour, but now by myself i'm like "wow!!! how do these keys work!" in attempt at typing something semi-legitimately-resembling the english languauge.
fuck, i'm drunk. AND I LOVE IT!!!! fuck being responsible and sober and sick!!!!!!!!! man,... cheap vodka.
ok, so i came to this realization:
having vertigo includes all the symptoms of intoxication without any of the bonuses. all the horrible dizzy, nauseated, unable-to-concentrate symptoms. SO
i should just get drunk. and then when i'm dizzy, i'll like it. and then when my mind spins, i'll appreciate it. i thought on wednesday "fuck, i have vertigo again: i can't have any fun this weekend before my fucking 12-hr tech."
WRONG. i can have fun, because that keeps my vertigo symptoms and adds the symptom of having fun. score. we drank cheap vodka, and now i'm sitting in bobby, grant, and drew's room alone. but i'm not tempted to valiate against the scores of homework, i have, against the professors i need to impress to continue doing work with them. instead, i can revel in the drunkenness.
wow, this is taking me ages to write this post because FUCK back vodka makes you drunk. but oh my the lack of cognizant awareness and rational thought is ENJOYABLE when you CHOSE it, rather than when you just have vertigo. fuck my 12-hr tech tomorrow.
wow, did you know it took me like 9 times to spell "continue" correctly? oi... i had such great type-writing skills before this. moral life lesson: LOOSEN UP, MAURA!!!
does that ever amaze anyone, when you see my name and you realize it has a "U" in it? how many names have "u"'s in it? fuck. ok, i'm drunk. and i LOVE it.
why bother being sober when your conscious state isn't fully intact because you fucking suffer from vertigo and can't see or balance or process material correctly? answer: no value to being sober.
i haven't been drunk in like a month because i was afraid of the exacerbations vertigo would impose upon drunken states and/or vertigo. but i realized: fuck that. vertigo is drunkenness without happiness. thus, be drunk. lose your balance, concentration, feeling. do it willingly, under the guise of non-soberness, and it will make you happy. maybe i should take those fucking pills for vertigo that don't help but they tell me not to take them during drunkenness. that would be fun.
i really like our RA and it's weird that i felt totally sober when i was talking to her for an hour, but now by myself i'm like "wow!!! how do these keys work!" in attempt at typing something semi-legitimately-resembling the english languauge.
fuck, i'm drunk. AND I LOVE IT!!!! fuck being responsible and sober and sick!!!!!!!!! man,... cheap vodka.