Busy Few Weeks..

[auraabsorber]

So it's beginning.. The busiest two weeks of my entire life.

I've exactly one week until my birthday, I'd act excited about it but I've never really known what it's like to have a fun birthday, much less what it was like to be excited for them.

Then just over a week after that? My wedding day.

I wish I could say that I was calm and collected about it but my mind is running a mile a minute and I can't seem to relax. I've so much to do yet but at least all of the major things have been taken care of. I think for the most part it's the typical worries, if the food will be okay, the flowers delivered on time, if my dress will fit right that day, if people will be able to make it.

Normal.. Bride stuff.

Normal..

That's a word I've been missing my entire life. Normal... It seems perfect right now. I'm doing normal things, I'm a mother.. I've a home.. I live in a beautiful country and I'm about to be married to the most remarkable man on the planet.

If that's not normal... I don't know what normal could be.

I know most people would say I'm probably being too nervous about all of this but I can't help but to be. My life hasn't been normal before and it's been anything less than easy. I'm worried something will go wrong, that something will be messed up and we won't get another chance any time soon. Guess I should remain hopeful, push any negativity away from me and just... Live.

That's the best I can do right now. Live. Ignore the few bad things going on in my life right now and focus on the wonderful things.

Truthfully.. I'd much rather deal with the wonderful things..